Whiny post about how i miss my mam .... xD
Posted by bronwen wild on Thursday, August 9, 2012
Gah, been crying a lot today
And every single
I miss my mammy
Feel has been on overdrive
Shes been gone nearly two years
Yet I miss her just as much if not more (But in a different way) as when she'd only just gone
But you can't tell people that
cause its like people dont expect me to still miss her
Or rather that my missing her shouldn't affect me as much anymore
But to those people I would kindly like to ask them how they would feel of their mothers hadn't seen them to their 15th birthday
or even through their GCSE's
Or their first real relationship
First break up
My mam was a chef
Yet she never got to show me how to cook
my mam was amazing at making clothes
I'll never get to ask her to show me
My mam was depressed out of her mind
And I never got to ask her how she coped
I miss her
I miss her
I miss her
I miss her
And I write these emails to her on facebook
cause like it still feels like it could be her
I know I'll never get a reply
but I can write it just as I would if she were alive.
I just wish
I dont know what I wish
Things would be so very very different if she were still here
so
very
different
god
everything
would be
so
different
I would have Gcse's
god
Id never probably have even made friends with nick
I probably wouldn't hate sian
My friends would know how to talk to me
I'd still be friends with my friends
I wouldn't be as depressed
I wouldn't be living here
We probably wouldn't even be living in wales anymore
She'd probably just have like sold the house and spent the money traveling or some shit
OH and on clothes xD
Sometimes I think I spend too much
then I think back to her
and go
Nahhh
Like I remember this one time
we were in monsoon
and she bought like 6 dresses
So thats around £700 in one shop
And she had shoes
and her coat
I dread to think how much that cost
and granny gave it away
along with most of mams stuff
could have fucking KILLED HER
Gah I miss my mum
I miss her everyday
and im kinda starting to wonder when it gets easier....
Okay sorry
that post has been in the works for weeks
i know im a whiny cow
sorry
gah
im gonna go eat now
xD
nighty night yola.
And every single
I miss my mammy
Feel has been on overdrive
Shes been gone nearly two years
Yet I miss her just as much if not more (But in a different way) as when she'd only just gone
But you can't tell people that
cause its like people dont expect me to still miss her
Or rather that my missing her shouldn't affect me as much anymore
But to those people I would kindly like to ask them how they would feel of their mothers hadn't seen them to their 15th birthday
or even through their GCSE's
Or their first real relationship
First break up
My mam was a chef
Yet she never got to show me how to cook
my mam was amazing at making clothes
I'll never get to ask her to show me
My mam was depressed out of her mind
And I never got to ask her how she coped
I miss her
I miss her
I miss her
I miss her
And I write these emails to her on facebook
cause like it still feels like it could be her
I know I'll never get a reply
but I can write it just as I would if she were alive.
I just wish
I dont know what I wish
Things would be so very very different if she were still here
so
very
different
god
everything
would be
so
different
I would have Gcse's
god
Id never probably have even made friends with nick
I probably wouldn't hate sian
My friends would know how to talk to me
I'd still be friends with my friends
I wouldn't be as depressed
I wouldn't be living here
We probably wouldn't even be living in wales anymore
She'd probably just have like sold the house and spent the money traveling or some shit
OH and on clothes xD
Sometimes I think I spend too much
then I think back to her
and go
Nahhh
Like I remember this one time
we were in monsoon
and she bought like 6 dresses
So thats around £700 in one shop
And she had shoes
and her coat
I dread to think how much that cost
and granny gave it away
along with most of mams stuff
could have fucking KILLED HER
Gah I miss my mum
I miss her everyday
and im kinda starting to wonder when it gets easier....
Okay sorry
that post has been in the works for weeks
i know im a whiny cow
sorry
gah
im gonna go eat now
xD
nighty night yola.
