Sat here listening to starkid and it has accrued to once again how heart felt and deep the show is, despite all its sillyness.
Songs like Not alone, Harry, and Guys like potter, Home, Granger Danger, Stutter (to some extent) the coolest girl, get back up, beauty, the way I do
They're such beautiful songs, with really deep wonderful meaning. Which I think is why I love them so much. They're all one big family who are lovely, and they make such wonderful things together that matter to them and to us, and they mean something. The dont make crap theyy put heart and humor and GUH
People shrug startkid off cause
"Oh its shitty harry potter cosplayers with crap actors/singers making dicks of themselves and not even sticking to the books/films."
Yeah well WARNER BROTHERS! Liked it so much they forgot all about suing Starkid so long as they were the only people EVER to preform AVPM/S
And Starship and Holy musical b@tman are fucking amazing.
Starship has some of the best "family value messages" Going.
The song the way I do is just fucking perfect
"When they say you can't love I think they've got it wrong, when they say you cant feel with a heart made of steal well you cant say that steal aint strong, but if thats who you are just a meaningless start in the sky then tell me what is the meaning of what I am feeling of you are the reason why. now i may be dumb but where I come from folks say they're fine when i know that they're blue. cause you dont know you the way I do."
C'mon thats fucking beautiful. And I dont fucking care if thats sung from a fucking farmplanet alien called tootsy noodles to a human hating robot called mega girl. Its fucking beautiful.
Or the song Home.
"Home I've heard the word before, its never meant much more than just a thing I've never had. Place the say hey know your place. I'e never had a place or a face that i could go to if i needed someone there. .... ....  I've finally found it, i've hoped and I have waited, this must be how it feels to have a home ... I used to dream about it but never schemed or counted on fantasies or wishes it breaks a man to see what he misses"
Or not alone. which is without a doubt one of the best songs Darren has ever written.
"I've been alone, surounded by darkness, And i've seen how heartless the world can be.     I've seen you cryinig, felt like its hopless I'll always do my best to make you see, that baby you're not alone, cause you're here with me, and nothings ever gonna bring us down cause nothing can keep me from loving you, and you know its true, no matter what'll come to be our love is all we need to make it though I know it aaint easy, but it aint hard trying every time i see you smiling and feel you so close to me....... I still have trouble try to trip and stumble trying to make sense of things sometimes I look for reasons when I dont need them, all I need is to look in your eyes and i realize...."

Those songs they just guh
But still favorite beautiful line from any song its "They'll drench the flame like its a game with drops of water.   He'll never ever think her perfect as I thought her" Well that and "Why can't they leave me alone to love princesses maid's and queens we'd treat them nice and never be mean but they dont care"
Guh
Statkid
You make me laugh and cry
and I still love how ron in a few sentences managed to sum up how I feel when I get lonely or people leave
"Well I hope you and voldemort live happily ever after. because me. I am. never. going to be happy. again. Now if you excuse me im going to go curl up in my sock draw and sleep for days." *while eating a massive ass chocolate bar*

Starkid <3 Parlé <3 FDP <3 JOC <3
Ya'll make me happy, and make me sad. But I nerd over you like a mother fucker.
And have helped me.
Its mad to say that without a bunch of people of the internet who arent even aware of your existence changed your life. But they have. and its all for the better. I mean John, Hank, And the rest of nerdfighteria (including all vlogers) Have changed it too. But to be honest before i found twin and val and nova. And before they showed me this whole world where... People are like gay... but its not like... OMG WE'RE GAY its more OMG STRAIGHT PEOPLE! Which is like... woah...And then I found Shiki and Joss who are just CUTE! And awesome and very sweet. And then Parlé just wsergtyhukpl fuck. tHats when my brain just went. Okay we're going to dress how we've wanted to like really for the past 5 years, we're going to cosplay, call ourself Sam, Accept that we're A LOT more male than female, accept we're single, hope for new awesome cosplay friends and be inspired that yeah things are shit now but in like 3 years things will be a lot different and probably for the better.
And no it wasn't just Jenn and Kelly and co, it was all of them. and I owe them all, so much but mainly the top four. Nerdfighteria is my family, and cosplayers/drama kids are my home.
I know this is a very long winded post. I've been doing a lot of writing today
Its good for the soul
I feel better for doing it and my typing is getting faster again
YAY
though it would help if i could spell or press the keys properly.
But yeah
tidied my room
And rearanged it
its awesome
I have aa desk now
and everything is a neat
and its just good
and yay
oh and im actually getting places with my book
like im under no illusions of finishing it any time even remotely soon
but its looking like i may actually finish it
which will be awesome.
College is okay
I dont really have many friends yet
and my anxiety is all WB RFTGYUKPLHU BNFTKMHU>K?LPGH U>K?LP:H SBRFTGYHUKPL GFVTHNUKM<LP:SZGBHNUKML<SZXDCFGVHNKMP<LXDCFHBNKML<:>@ZDXNK <L:>@?RD FHPL@%SE FTGYHUKER FUPKPEDR FTGHKLXR TH FTGHU
But eh
t'will be fine
*sigh* its like quarter to 1 and im not tired
the fuck?
Stupid body clock
Bleh going now cause tumblr distraacted me and if i had something else to say its now gone
but yeah
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see you yola
xoxoxxxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxox
thats sam for I hope you all die in flames xD
BYEEEEEE! ^^_^