Wanna know something messed up?
Posted by bronwen wild on Monday, November 19, 2012
Im heavier and fatter than I've ever been
Yet somehow I'm happier with my body and the way I look more than ever
I know why
Its because I admitted to myself all the stuff
oh for fuck sake
If I cant be honest on my own blog because some asshole is reading my blog now I dont see the point
Since I admitted to myself im bi-gender/ Androgynous (Im not sure which yet... Trans is still on the cards mind)
I've been happier, better and more at piece with myself cause im not constantly at war trying to be girly, to have the perfect female figure..
Also admiting im pansexual. witch is the only name I can think to put to, I dont give a fuck what you identify as, or even really what you look like, its personality I care about :L
Lord im sorry
Im not really writing to get stuff out
I read a thing on tumblr an its creeped me the fuck out
and now im terrified and hlh;'lknbfwpdlkvnlv
So yeah.....
But yes, Im so much happier with myself
And I LOVE my hair and being pink
And i've just gone FUCK IT
too holding back my nerdy self
And I think its fucking beautiful
Im more me than ever before
I game (somewhat) I cosplay, I tumbl, I read, I read manga, I read comics, I watch anime, I fangirl over TV shows and films.
And its grate
And Im happy
Happier than I have been in years
And I love that I did it by myself
I had no one there to help me or hold my hand
But I got the fuck up and I got better
And you know what?
Im proud of me
For becoming who I am
Knowing who that is so much better than before
Striving to be who I want to be
And accepting what I needed to accept
And the fact I did it alone
Considering being alone has always been one of my biggest fears
Is a big thing for me
And I just love it
I love being happy when Im just sat at home
I love talking to people and not hating them for being happy when Im not
When Im sad it doesn't last all day
And when im angry it doesn't ruin my whole day.
And I guess
After 5 horrible years
and never seeing myself get this far and NEVER did I see myself knowing what I wanted to do
Or being able to go for it
Or wanting to go to Uni with a course in mind and a plan of how to get it
I didn't ever think I'd make it this far
I by no means have turned out how I imagined I would
But right now
Im proud of who I am and what Im doing
And thats more than I could have ever wished or asked for.
Im sorry for rambling this really was meant to be short
but I needed to just keep rambling until I felt safe again because that post really shook me
*Shudders*
but I shall talk to you soon yola
Nighty night xxx
Yet somehow I'm happier with my body and the way I look more than ever
I know why
Its because I admitted to myself all the stuff
oh for fuck sake
If I cant be honest on my own blog because some asshole is reading my blog now I dont see the point
Since I admitted to myself im bi-gender/ Androgynous (Im not sure which yet... Trans is still on the cards mind)
I've been happier, better and more at piece with myself cause im not constantly at war trying to be girly, to have the perfect female figure..
Also admiting im pansexual. witch is the only name I can think to put to, I dont give a fuck what you identify as, or even really what you look like, its personality I care about :L
Lord im sorry
Im not really writing to get stuff out
I read a thing on tumblr an its creeped me the fuck out
and now im terrified and hlh;'lknbfwpdlkvnlv
So yeah.....
But yes, Im so much happier with myself
And I LOVE my hair and being pink
And i've just gone FUCK IT
too holding back my nerdy self
And I think its fucking beautiful
Im more me than ever before
I game (somewhat) I cosplay, I tumbl, I read, I read manga, I read comics, I watch anime, I fangirl over TV shows and films.
And its grate
And Im happy
Happier than I have been in years
And I love that I did it by myself
I had no one there to help me or hold my hand
But I got the fuck up and I got better
And you know what?
Im proud of me
For becoming who I am
Knowing who that is so much better than before
Striving to be who I want to be
And accepting what I needed to accept
And the fact I did it alone
Considering being alone has always been one of my biggest fears
Is a big thing for me
And I just love it
I love being happy when Im just sat at home
I love talking to people and not hating them for being happy when Im not
When Im sad it doesn't last all day
And when im angry it doesn't ruin my whole day.
And I guess
After 5 horrible years
and never seeing myself get this far and NEVER did I see myself knowing what I wanted to do
Or being able to go for it
Or wanting to go to Uni with a course in mind and a plan of how to get it
I didn't ever think I'd make it this far
I by no means have turned out how I imagined I would
But right now
Im proud of who I am and what Im doing
And thats more than I could have ever wished or asked for.
Im sorry for rambling this really was meant to be short
but I needed to just keep rambling until I felt safe again because that post really shook me
*Shudders*
but I shall talk to you soon yola
Nighty night xxx
