I could count on four fingers how many times in the past 6 months someone has asked how I am or shown actual concern for me.

I have so little purpose in my life at the moment I cant bring myself to be awake during the day...

it doesnt matter how tired I make myself, or how many all nighters I pull... I cant seem to not fall asleep just as everyone else wakes up, and not wake until late afternoon.

I get on average 4-5 hours sleep.

my eating has gone weird again

i've started cutting more often

i'm never not suicidal

i have no point

i have nothing to do

i am stuck

in this house

in my head

my head hates me


it's not even that i dont know what to do anymore

it's that i know what i want to do

but have no power to do it


i need to go back to the doctors

but no one will take me


i need to go now
my head is being funny today
maybe i shoulsnt have bothered getting out of bed.
not like theres a point anyway.