...

you see
when people talk of depression and suicide
when they urge people to talk to people or to get help
promising you that someone cares
i always felt like that was a bit.... off
for me anyway
because well no one really gave me any help
they just distanced themselves from me
the doctors didnt help
and the therapists did nothing but more damage

i fixed myself alone
no friends
no partner
and ONE family member
and to be fair to him he's a saint
but he doesnt understand a thing
and helped me with my depression like salt helps make thing sweet.

and it just makes me sad
because yeah
its easier with people by your side
of course it is
but please tell these people that its also okay to be by yourself
there's nothing wrong with you
and people do still love them
people are just fucking SHIT at showing it.

and i dont know
i cant think straight enough to finish this or whatever
i hope this has kind of got some form of point to it
night yola

(PS this is just a tangent of something i was on tumblr im still okay, im still okay)