This is what happens when I let my brain do the talking :L
Posted by bronwen wild on Sunday, May 13, 2012
I dont care if it makes me sound like a 5 year old. I want my mammy and cwtchs. Not sure why. But I just sat and thought..." I am tired, in pain and alone. I would quite like some cwtchs and my mammy"
Im even sad or anything. I mean I've had a pretty awesome day to be honest. Just messing about with the best friend I've ever had. Like no matter how crap I've been the past two years Jess has stuck by me, and like doesn't mind at all. And I love her for it. I think if i ever properly lost Jessie I'd die or something. When we were growing up her mum was my mum and my mum was hers. Every weekend, every holiday, every sunny day, every school day it was me and Jess. God I could tell you just as much about her life as she could. My crazy ass best friend. And sioned too. Since year 7.. thats 5 years.. wow. All of us have been together. And my god for a bunch of missfits we've had our fair share of drama and crap. But we've always been together.. even when I've gone off and been crap for ages, or when I ditched them for boys or trin and sam. They forgave me like it never happened. I'm so god damn lucky to have them. And after nine years of being in the same school as Jessie its going to be so strange not having her there by my side. Who's going to laugh at all the stupid things with me now?
But this is a happy post yola! Because you see I'm kinda getting better. I'm eating now, and i'm getting out the house more, Hell im even like not staying confined to my room within the house, im playing my drums and piano again for the first time in months! :L And losing some weight in a healthy way. And I will see my friends more. Cause I'm tired yola. I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself. And Im tired of hiding away scared and in pain. And if im going to be in pain, why not be happy while I am? I have till September to sort my shit out. So that when I go to college im the girl I want to be. And someone I can happily introduce to new people.
So Im not exactly happy yola... But im okay. And im getting there. And we're going to sort this shit out!
Night night xx
Im even sad or anything. I mean I've had a pretty awesome day to be honest. Just messing about with the best friend I've ever had. Like no matter how crap I've been the past two years Jess has stuck by me, and like doesn't mind at all. And I love her for it. I think if i ever properly lost Jessie I'd die or something. When we were growing up her mum was my mum and my mum was hers. Every weekend, every holiday, every sunny day, every school day it was me and Jess. God I could tell you just as much about her life as she could. My crazy ass best friend. And sioned too. Since year 7.. thats 5 years.. wow. All of us have been together. And my god for a bunch of missfits we've had our fair share of drama and crap. But we've always been together.. even when I've gone off and been crap for ages, or when I ditched them for boys or trin and sam. They forgave me like it never happened. I'm so god damn lucky to have them. And after nine years of being in the same school as Jessie its going to be so strange not having her there by my side. Who's going to laugh at all the stupid things with me now?
But this is a happy post yola! Because you see I'm kinda getting better. I'm eating now, and i'm getting out the house more, Hell im even like not staying confined to my room within the house, im playing my drums and piano again for the first time in months! :L And losing some weight in a healthy way. And I will see my friends more. Cause I'm tired yola. I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself. And Im tired of hiding away scared and in pain. And if im going to be in pain, why not be happy while I am? I have till September to sort my shit out. So that when I go to college im the girl I want to be. And someone I can happily introduce to new people.
So Im not exactly happy yola... But im okay. And im getting there. And we're going to sort this shit out!
Night night xx
