...

*sigh*
I hope the doctor can give me somat tomorrow
cause I mean
Otherwise... Im fucked
And no one cares
thats the fun thing
well no
Jake cares bless his soul
But he doesn't get it
and neither dose anyone else
no one else seems to get how badly this affects me and always has
because I just dont talk about it
And im only making anything of it now because its becoming crippling
Like leaving my room is scary
And I really do just lose the ability to communicate and function normally after going out somewhere
I have panic attacks more than ever
and fuck its just horrible
and I dont want to go through it
Yet no one cares
and by no one I mean no one that knows which isnt many people
*sigh* I'd just like some support or something
Cause people got on at me for going out
but no one ever says
"hey it'll be okay if it gets overwhelming we'll go somewhere quiet, kay?"
Nope because then I become a fucking burden
Im fucking tired of it yola
Its horrible
when I go out I usually want to run, hide,die and cry all at the same time while im TERRIFIED!
But im just being melodramatic, im being whiny, or stupid, it doesnt fucking matter
FUCK YOU!
If I dont fix this soon I can forget college
I can forget getting a job
I'll be stuck, usless
And I cant do that
So I fuck you all
It hurts and I dont like it and whether or not any of you fuckers believe its a problem
Ima fix this
And trust me when I say
that when any of you assholes ever suffer from depression or anything like this
I will laugh
And I will just tell you to get over it
And I really dont care anymore
Goodbye good night
Sorry for the rant and lots of posts yola
not having the best week
Wait
who'm I kidding you're a website
You dont care
I mean this is just coding to you
night yola