I feel so very alone

I feel unloved and irrelevant

like, I could vanish and no one would notice, let alone care

Im not suicidal, no, but im not against dieing either, my self harming has started, but only when my head wont be quiet. I'm trying to stay okay, and I am most of the time, I just get so tired, and I just, stop being okay sometimes.

But its okay cause if im alone im not bothering anyone, right? I dont mean to worry people. I dont mean to bother them.

Sometimes im just too weak... I get selfish.

s'why I come here.

I wrote a song though.

since padi's out working till late and dad's away I've worked on my singing alot. Its how I keep the demons at bay, it makes my head shut up.

I feel like im even bothering you now yola, sorry im whining arent I?

God sam just shut up.

Alright im going now, speak to you soon yola xxx