Okay so this is whiny and I know it. But its my last year in school (yeah i've actually decided to go to college as of last night xD) And since I have actually been asked to prom (even if it a "will you go so i dont end up being a loner" type thing, it still counts) And you know, I thought, crazily that my dad wouldnt mind giving a tenner for tickets. (they're 20 but padi was fine about lending me a tenner) Cause I wanted to be able to go to prom, but to also be able to see sianie on saturday and actually have some money with me  But of course not. Cause hes low and fucking behold drunk. And a tosser. And cant let me for a second forget that he doesnt actually want me here or give a damn about me. Prom. Thats an typical teen thing. A thing that most kids get a dress and tickets for. I dont mind about the dress. But it would be nice if for once I could be at least a little bit normal. Im a fuckup and I'm not very close to any of my friends anymore. And I'd really like one night of being a teenager. And if that means being bored in a stuffy room with crappy music. Then okay!
Fuckit sorry that was whiny. Lawdeh. I think im mostly upset cause dad got really personal and mean. I mean ffs its a tenner. Once. Never gonna happen again. I hate him. I really really do. I want to get away from here.
Aber is sounding good atm, mostly cause a course I wanna take in college is there. And it'd be a pretty cool course to take ^_^
But Im so scared about september. Cause Padi's gonna be gone and im going to be stuck here with the old cunt. "/
I need to get out. Sorta wishing I had just run in December...
But for now, Im just hoping I get into college and that if i do I get ema.
These two things woul be pretty fucking perfect to be fair :3
Night night yola xx