...

Oh god oh god oh god oh god
PANIC
Hit the panic stations and then call for backup
I've done something stupid
Or rather let myself do something stupid
well
didn't let
its just sort of happened
But yeah
oh god
Fuck
Nope
no
I do
not
can
not
nope
I refuse
We've worked so hard for months not to let hopes be raised
There is no liking people
it ends in disappointment and hurt
Its stupid
stop it
nope nope nope nope nope
please go away
I cant
nope
oh dear god
we'll get over this, work around it, it'll be all good.
Help
Oh god
Please no
Nope
this is stupid
I cant
just stop
FUU
Nope 
Sam,
sam, no
We dont do this stuff



Also on a TOTALLY different note
Took this personality test thing someone on tumblr linked to, to see what gender role you are
and I came out as androgynous leaning more towards male
So even bullshit tests think im manry xD
Fun times :3
Oh and my waistcoat is nearly done
its cool
Black pinstripe with purple lining ^^
Fuck
I needed to buy a buckle for that today
ahh well I'll get one monday
*Sigh*
Seriously though
I cant like him, its stupid and will only end up with me being hurt and disappointed due to the fact that LOL never gonna happen
This is stupid and I know it
The only guys who ever actually like me are desperate freaks
I know where I stand
*sigh* Why am I such an idiot?