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Posted by bronwen wild on Tuesday, September 3, 2013
Today has just been a cluster fuck of emotions
right because when i woke up all was good... it was 3 pm and my brother was in a good mood annd we went to tesco and i bought movies...
but then i go downstairs to get food and me and my dad have a fight over the usual crap of him being a terrible person and me just
not
understanding
because
thats
litterally
not
how
it
works
good god.
so then i was crying a lot... and messaged gina because sads
and then i got over it a bit and asked how she was and she said she was all anxiety-ie so then i was worried
because the poor baby had had it all week and was feeling all bleh
and then i was okay again
if still a little not okay from the crying earlier
but now im just a ball of anixety
who needs to sleep
but cant
because
anxiety
but no
because
college
in like....
4 and a half hours... well no thats just when i have to be up... good god
i should sleep but im not tired... im just worried
god damn it gina i know you probably went to sleep but urwbejpfak;nfvbiunjweerjifewfiwouewouegouew i need you you make things better
hmm maybe i should dwell on my conflited feelings about you instead of my worry about tomorrow?
hmm no
i would watch more digimon because that show is the shit but i dont feel i have the level of commitment required o watch a like 18 minute show right now...
hmm maybe i'll watch some kpop shits... maybe my ft babies.... hongki always makes me happy.... OH i'll watching the maknae rebelion ep with hooni in it... That ones cute cause Seunghyun gets to show off to his hyung and also is a little less of a dork because hoonie has to deal with that shit every day and will hit him :3 Ahh Seunghyun is cute. I miss his overconfidence. I wish FNC promoted their idol bands like regular idols so they went on more shows/ did more radio.. cause like i get they've been around for agggessss but still... SHINee and Big Bang and U-kiss wait is it u kiss thats been around forever?? Whatever SuJu have been around for ages too... but they all still do stuff now and then (i mean shinee are fuckin everywhere jfc) so why cant FNC get in there? cause even fuckin cnblue dont do shit these days and THEY HAVE A NEW SINGLE OUT AND JUST WHAT ARE U DOINGGGGGG?? gah. Stupid Warner music Japan. I would love you since you do stuff with my ft babies... but YOU DONT OUT THEIR MUSIC ON ITUNES AND I HAVE A DEEP ISSUE WITH THIS BECAUSE I CAN NOT AFFORD A £40 CD WITH LIKE £30 SHIPPING FEES FROM A WEBSITE THAT LOOKS LIKE An INCOMPITENT PHISHING SCAM
*sighs*
oh the woes of an international fan.
one day WMJ will bring my babies over here... CN blue were here last year... so it only makes sence to bring the older (and better) ones here too, righhhttttttttt? I mean Youngwha said he PROMISED they'd come back, so why not bring their buddies and elders along with them..... huh fnc huh?
okay sorry
im done now
but this has helped my anxiety greatly
ahh good ol rants about pointless shit
see you soon yola <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
right because when i woke up all was good... it was 3 pm and my brother was in a good mood annd we went to tesco and i bought movies...
but then i go downstairs to get food and me and my dad have a fight over the usual crap of him being a terrible person and me just
not
understanding
because
thats
litterally
not
how
it
works
good god.
so then i was crying a lot... and messaged gina because sads
and then i got over it a bit and asked how she was and she said she was all anxiety-ie so then i was worried
because the poor baby had had it all week and was feeling all bleh
and then i was okay again
if still a little not okay from the crying earlier
but now im just a ball of anixety
who needs to sleep
but cant
because
anxiety
but no
because
college
in like....
4 and a half hours... well no thats just when i have to be up... good god
i should sleep but im not tired... im just worried
god damn it gina i know you probably went to sleep but urwbejpfak;nfvbiunjweerjifewfiwouewouegouew i need you you make things better
hmm maybe i should dwell on my conflited feelings about you instead of my worry about tomorrow?
hmm no
i would watch more digimon because that show is the shit but i dont feel i have the level of commitment required o watch a like 18 minute show right now...
hmm maybe i'll watch some kpop shits... maybe my ft babies.... hongki always makes me happy.... OH i'll watching the maknae rebelion ep with hooni in it... That ones cute cause Seunghyun gets to show off to his hyung and also is a little less of a dork because hoonie has to deal with that shit every day and will hit him :3 Ahh Seunghyun is cute. I miss his overconfidence. I wish FNC promoted their idol bands like regular idols so they went on more shows/ did more radio.. cause like i get they've been around for agggessss but still... SHINee and Big Bang and U-kiss wait is it u kiss thats been around forever?? Whatever SuJu have been around for ages too... but they all still do stuff now and then (i mean shinee are fuckin everywhere jfc) so why cant FNC get in there? cause even fuckin cnblue dont do shit these days and THEY HAVE A NEW SINGLE OUT AND JUST WHAT ARE U DOINGGGGGG?? gah. Stupid Warner music Japan. I would love you since you do stuff with my ft babies... but YOU DONT OUT THEIR MUSIC ON ITUNES AND I HAVE A DEEP ISSUE WITH THIS BECAUSE I CAN NOT AFFORD A £40 CD WITH LIKE £30 SHIPPING FEES FROM A WEBSITE THAT LOOKS LIKE An INCOMPITENT PHISHING SCAM
*sighs*
oh the woes of an international fan.
one day WMJ will bring my babies over here... CN blue were here last year... so it only makes sence to bring the older (and better) ones here too, righhhttttttttt? I mean Youngwha said he PROMISED they'd come back, so why not bring their buddies and elders along with them..... huh fnc huh?
okay sorry
im done now
but this has helped my anxiety greatly
ahh good ol rants about pointless shit
see you soon yola <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
