some happy and some sad :3

December 6, 2012
I miss my best friend. I miss her I miss her I miss her.
and she cant come Saturday.
Man I haven't cried so quickly over something in ages.
I didn' even realized I missed her so much until I typed it
*Sobs*
This will be the first birthday in years I wont be seeing jessie... and I can tell you that it sucks
Shes been my best friend since I was 7........ Thats ten years. O_O
I miss her
Sorry
I just
drfgyhukplp
I had a sudden sad

On a happy note though
My granny bought me the most beautiful coat for my birthday. Its black and well fitted... Longer at the back with a corset pannel in red at the back. And the buttons go all the way down wih the top ones sort of military style and the sleeves are lined in the same red as the back and are pointed. Its just fucking gorgeous
BUT IT WAS SO EXPENSIVE!!! I FEEL SO BAD!
 I love her for it rdrfgyhuk its so pretty, but i dont think i'll ever stop thanking her for it :3

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I have a feeling this is going to go all over the place

December 3, 2012
Okay so first off
LAST NIGHT JENN AND KELLY WERE TO CUTEST FUCKING CUTE EVER!
And they know they are ¬_¬
And just wsedrtfgyhukpl;'

and now onto why im here
So Twin (Lucas (heh Luke ASS... sorry alcon thing..) just uploaded a new transition update video.. and I'm so proud of him... I know that sounds weird because we've never met and hes just some guy off the internet... but i owe him a lot, aaand hes doing so well.
Its been around 5 months since his last video and hes doing so well. His voice...
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^_^

December 1, 2012
Its nine days till im 17

my last birthday feels like it was a life time ago

So much has changed

I'll reflect more on that in the week no doubt

I just
since its the first
Though I should just say...
Ya know
OHMYGODWHATTHEFUCKAMIDOINGWITHMYLIFEIMSUCHAFUCKUPANDIMSOSCAREDHELPMEOHGODPLEASE

So yeah

See you soon

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Im scared

November 30, 2012
God I have such big plans and such a long way to go
I was sat in the car coming baack from Aber tonight
And I was just thinking through it all

I have to leaarn to sew... like reaally well... within around two years
Which means, All money I have for the next two years Im going to have to spend on sewing and cosplaay
No cons,
I NEED to get fucking good

Aand Im terrified
Becaause what If I dont make it?
What if im not good enough?
What if my lack of being able to draw my designs out nicely holds me ...
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Fucking kellie I love her but this was too far and now Im all SZEXDRFTGYHKL<>ERTFGYHUK

November 29, 2012
I hate kellie so much right now
Fucking fuck
Fucking WHY
Why would you do that?
I am the most awkward and fugly person I know my anxiety has been bad for days and all I wanted was a nice calm day at college to get back into it
But fucking no
Fuck you
FUCK
God I feel like a twat
And now he knows, or thinks he knows, because really there's nothing to know, because I dont like him AAND FUCK!
Why, why would you do such aa thing
I AM THE MOST AWKWARD PERSON EVER
WHY WOULD YOU THINK THAT WAS A GOOD ID...
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srdcfgvhbnk

November 28, 2012
*sigh*

I miss mm
And I still like him
And Kellie is awful for this because she thinks she knows, which she does, but you know THATSSONOTTHEPOINTHERESHUTUPKELLIE
And im 17 in like... less than two weeks
and..
I have no friends to do anything with...and I kind of dont want to ask Kellie... cause it'd be awkward in the
"Why dont you hang out with your other friends?" Kind of way
So yeah "/
I maaay drag her out but not tell her its my birthd- fuck facebook
It'll be two days late its fine

*sigh*

Im su...
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haalp?

November 27, 2012
*sigh* i feel so fucking alone and so fucking scared im not going to make it to where i need to be.
and my head has decided this is the Perfect time to have crush's on people. because thats logical.
fuck.
help?
i need my mum.


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This is going too faar T_T

November 26, 2012
Seriously, If anyone has any ideas on how the fuck to stop liking someone thaat would be fucking grand because he is on my mind WAY too much and I can't fucking STAND it. TDFGHK
Its like just no
shut up brain
And I know obsessing over trying to get him off my mind wont help, but consciously trying to get him off my mind is better than him being subconsciously on my mind and coming up at weird moments T_T

my keyboard is so fucked T_T
HELP
I can not like him
Just no
fuck
Halp?
 

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why can't i get him off my mind?

November 24, 2012
This is driving me crazy!!!
fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
help?
fucking kellie i blame her for this T_T
help?
what do?
last time this happened... well we all know how that went down
hellllppppp T_T

welp back to merlin fics because thats the only thing keeping me sane right now

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sdfghkll; nope nope nope nope nope help

November 23, 2012
Oh god oh god oh god oh god
PANIC
Hit the panic stations and then call for backup
I've done something stupid
Or rather let myself do something stupid
well
didn't let
its just sort of happened
But yeah
oh god
Fuck
Nope
no
I do
not
can
not
nope
I refuse
We've worked so hard for months not to let hopes be raised
There is no liking people
it ends in disappointment and hurt
Its stupid
stop it
nope nope nope nope nope
please go away
I cant
nope
oh dear god
we'll get over this, work around it, it'll be all g...
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blerg

November 22, 2012
-sits being all weepy-
D:
I was already feeling tired and a tad miserable and was about to come and bitch on here then WHAM
CUTE JELLY POST!
And it was SO FUCKING SWEET
And then there were the usual "What do you identify as?" Questions to which Jenn answers Kelly-sexual which is just adorable and I love them and its so fucking cute And god damn
and its given me all the feels
considering
I am finally after months of being totally indifferent
Missing being in a relationship
I miss it
blerg
theres n...
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Wanna know something messed up?

November 19, 2012
Im heavier and fatter than I've ever been
Yet somehow I'm happier with my body and the way I look more than ever

I know why
Its because I admitted to myself all the stuff
oh for fuck sake
If I cant be honest on my own blog because some asshole is reading my blog now I dont see the point
Since I admitted to myself im bi-gender/ Androgynous (Im not sure which yet... Trans is still on the cards mind)
I've been happier, better and more at piece with myself cause im not constantly at war trying to...
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Some ramblings on a sunday ^_^ xxx

November 18, 2012
Hey yoola
So good things again
Possibly cause im listening the best song ever
But yeah
Went to Carms with Kellie and Caroline yesterday
Was fun ^_^
Bought some comics and a cool tongue bar ^_^
But it was just nice
spending a normal day with friends
And like properly with friends
Friends that have someone they both think I'd be cute with
SHUTUPIDONTLIKECHRIS
I honestly dont but they're insistent its funny :L
But yush
Im happy
and Im talking to my tumblr peeps
In short im feelings a lot less alone ...
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pwe'fn'WRNKGe'p#[SL'P;

November 17, 2012
WOW
I just legit surprised myself
So i was on tumblr... as I do
and There was the text post
that was like
"I hate it when you hear someone calling you but no one was actually calling you and you sit there confused as fuck for ages" And the post underneath said "Maybe its our loved ones trying to wake us from the coma we're in" And m head thought just calmly and then moved on..."Oh, I hope im not in a coma, im happy here"

wow
just fucking wow

Though today aside from being tiring as fuck has been ...
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I dont know wtf this is i just kinda wrote it...

November 15, 2012

my boots like lead below my feet my hair a shade of pink i didnt even know a head could be

It shines in light and glows without aid, short and styled and straightened and burned

My hair falls to pices just like my head.

This girl, big chested short and fat. I know her aswell as I know myself

but thats wrong

because she is me

So I stare at her in the mirror

i look at the slanty eyes, crooked mouth, wide hips, big chest, fat stomach, double chin, bright hair

And I ask

Well if you...


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seriously who is reading this?

November 14, 2012
who the fuck are you?

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sbvdlcnzmx,

November 14, 2012
Fuck
Hey yola
i dont know
Im fucking sad all of a sudden
And my anxiety is up
SO JUST FUCK OKAY!
Do you remember when I used to say being alone was my worst fear...
Like I could deal with everything else
But being alone....
Was just too much

Turns out Im stronger than before
Because I haven't died yet

Havent even cut

But its getting to me yola
cause I literally have no one left
and no one I want to try to get back into my life

Jake is being a weird cunt at the moment and I cant talk to him
My ot...
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My haair is purple....

November 11, 2012
Oh my god I'd written  whole post but it got deleted. so fuck everything
FUCK THIS SHIT
It was posotive crap
why cant I have anything
god fucking damn it


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I want to die

November 11, 2012
please?

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What're you doing reading my blog 17 times in one week, its ungodly you know

November 11, 2012
Woah holy shit fuck, someone's reading this again?
I've only just checked the site stats thing in weeks
WHO ARE YOU?
I didn't know anyone still knew this existed
wait what have I even posted recently?
Lord cat fuck
WHO ARE YOU?!

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