oh look shes whining again... shock horror! :O
Posted by bronwen wild on Tuesday, July 3, 2012
Hey yola.
So i dont have any clue what I want to talk about
but i felt like i should talk
Had a pretty okay day. Bought books ^_^ Read two of them already (shut up manga counts as a book)
It was also good cause the like one person who knows about all this shit isnt scared of me and doest think im a freak or something. Which you know... Was surprising. And nice.
Though speaking of that
still no idea what I want to do
And I am starting to think it would be easier to just
you know
Be a girl
ive coped so far
whats a little while longer?
Yes im a coward what of it?
I have no idea how to go about any of this
I dont know what to tell people, how to tell people,
and you just in general wtf I actually want to do ahaha
Cause like
I hate it
I hate sounding like a girl
I hate looking like a girl
I hate it
its not me
No hate is probably a bad word to use
cause that makes it sound as if its a faze
or its a style thing
Hate is a bad word to describe it
whats a better one?
Uncomfortable? Better...
confusing?
i dont know
FUck it all
GAH !
I know its meant to take time to figure out
and that a lot of trans people or people that suspect they're trans go to therapy about it (not to change their mind.. to help understand)
But dose it have to be this confusing?
I mean im confused about how to make myself less confused
just give me an effing beard and call me bob
I will be the creepy freak that everyone knows of but doesnt ever go near
I'll have 4000000 cats and live off cheese
It'll be grand.
crazy phill they'll call me
yes sir
i go by many names
*sigh*
What do?
how do?
why why why why why why why why?
Its like this has made things so much better
but so so much worse at the same time
FUUUUU
Okay im going to stop whining now
bye yola xx
So i dont have any clue what I want to talk about
but i felt like i should talk
Had a pretty okay day. Bought books ^_^ Read two of them already (shut up manga counts as a book)
It was also good cause the like one person who knows about all this shit isnt scared of me and doest think im a freak or something. Which you know... Was surprising. And nice.
Though speaking of that
still no idea what I want to do
And I am starting to think it would be easier to just
you know
Be a girl
ive coped so far
whats a little while longer?
Yes im a coward what of it?
I have no idea how to go about any of this
I dont know what to tell people, how to tell people,
and you just in general wtf I actually want to do ahaha
Cause like
I hate it
I hate sounding like a girl
I hate looking like a girl
I hate it
its not me
No hate is probably a bad word to use
cause that makes it sound as if its a faze
or its a style thing
Hate is a bad word to describe it
whats a better one?
Uncomfortable? Better...
confusing?
i dont know
FUck it all
GAH !
I know its meant to take time to figure out
and that a lot of trans people or people that suspect they're trans go to therapy about it (not to change their mind.. to help understand)
But dose it have to be this confusing?
I mean im confused about how to make myself less confused
just give me an effing beard and call me bob
I will be the creepy freak that everyone knows of but doesnt ever go near
I'll have 4000000 cats and live off cheese
It'll be grand.
crazy phill they'll call me
yes sir
i go by many names
*sigh*
What do?
how do?
why why why why why why why why?
Its like this has made things so much better
but so so much worse at the same time
FUUUUU
Okay im going to stop whining now
bye yola xx
