Dear depression T_T Kindly fuck off with making me make bad decisions. And dear Jake. FUCK OFF ITS BEEN TWO WEEKS! Its people like you that make the "teen love" stereotype true. Long distance doesn't bother me. But you do. FUUUUUUUU I have enough stress without having to worry about the fact that I REALLY want to dump you but because you're a clingy motherfucker I'll feel too awful. Its been two weeks. Thats not even enough time to get to know each other properly. I cant do it. I cant. I cant pretend the world works the way your stupid head thinks it dose. And I cant pretend that Im okay just because it will hurt you. And I cant pretend like things are simple just cause you think they are!
 God I wouldnt mind if it had been longer and hed gotten like this but its been two weeks! And hes talking like we've been together for months. fuck off with your weird questions and random outbursts of how much you love me and how much I mean to you. Its not sweet. Its creepy and annoying.
What the fuck do I do though yola? cause he seems to mean it.. and Im going to feel awful. But hes so wrong for me its funny. And I dont need this stress atm.. or ever really. But atm with my belly starting to show signs of letting up..ALL stress needs to be gone... cause my figuring is, if I can keep it gone for long enough...It might not come back... What.Do.I.Do?!? FuUUUUUUCK
God its been two fucking weeks, there shouldnt be anything to feel that bad about! We havent even seen eachother in the two weeks cause he lives in fucking Ascot! BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRG -headdesk- WTF do I do yola ? I havent felt this bad since Jamie tried to kiss me.... FUCK! BLARRRG.
Help help help help help help help help help D: HELP! fuck everything and the world and everything in it and ahh fuck T_T
What do? What do ? what do ? what do ? what do ? what do ?