dear yola,

im suicidal again

my snixety is awful
and it's screwing me up again

i feel like I should tell someone but I have no one to tell

so I hope I dont fuck anything up

and i sure do hope I dont end up killing myself

it would be such a let down after all these years

i wish someone would tell me it's okay

because i dont feel like it is

and i dont want to die

but everything feels so damn hopeless

i mean this cant be it

this cant be all that is left