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*sigh*
I have so many things wrong with me
like actually worrying me need to go to the doctors cause im scared wrong with me
yet of late
all I care about or rather, get sad over is how fucking alone I am
and I how I wish I was in a relationship or something
and as little as a hug comes under or something
Since I dont remember when the last hug I got was
But I know It was a fair fucking while ago
I have one friend at college
and hes on a different course to me
and its not looking like im going to make any friends on my course
fuckit im doomed
Blah
I miss it. its been ... 7? months since I've even had a decent hug for fuck sake
Let alone any of the other nice stuff that comes with being in a relationship like feeling wanted or knowing you can text them whenever regardless of whether they can text back or not
but who'm I kidding?
I'm alone
Probably always will be
Im not stupid enough to think otherwise or get my hopes up again
well.... not just yet anyway

Im glad I have you yola
I think I'd go mad if I couldn't tell this to something
So thankyou
you inanimate piece of soft wear? Coding? INTERNET!!!! You
<3
*hugs screen*
I really do think I would have gone mad by now If I didnt have here and Tumblr

night yola
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