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Posted by bronwen wild on Tuesday, January 28, 2014
theres a certain amount of irony about listening to someone tell me about their school screwing them over, as if i wasnt screwed over by mine.
dont get me wrong her school are being dicks
but i would LOVE IT if she stopped talking to me like i have no idea about what it's like, or what im talking about, as if i havent gone though the same and worse.
because dear lord i would LOVE to be able to go back and you know not be crazy and not try to kill myself and all that fun stuff, because i had a whole fucking plan for my life and it was taken away from me by my shitty fucking school. they promised me every god damn day that they'd give me my work and that they'd let me take my exams... but they never gave me work (at all) and they decided like a month before exams after a year of chaising them that, oh wait... no. you cant take your exams we're making you re-sit year 11 because of our own lazyness. so it's too fucking bad that you want to leave this hell hole due to the fact that coming here makes you ill to the point where you cant eat, sleep, move or breath. but you know, sucks to be you.
and because i was afraid i was actually going to kill myself, or you know die trying not to, i figured it was best to leave, because i was so scared of myself that i just wanted to make it stop since everyone is always fucking tell me how i cant kill myself and i cant cut myself and i cant have aniti depressants and i cant have anti anxieities and i cant go to therapy because they're all just assholes who judge wayy to quickly and never wait to listen to everythinbefore they start judging, because i have a lot of shit okay? i am very fucked up, but everyone just assumes its just mum dieing and shit, but i was depressed before then and lord knows im depressed after.
and i just
would like to not be talked to like all the shit didnt happen to me.
becuase it did, and it hurts to be spoken to like i have no idea.
when i know all too fucking well
and thankfully her school itsnt even screwing her over to the same level mine did
which im really glad about
seriously
but just please
stop talking to me like i have no idea
it sucks that your school is screwing around with you, they have no right, this is your life they're fucking with and its not right.
but yelling at me isnt going to solve anything...
it'l just make me sad and bitter (er than i already am)
night yola. it's a long life, and even though people are always telling me not to cut or kill myself, i cut my arm last week, really badlly, and no one noticed, or if they did they didnt say a thing, so, i mean, who's really the one being selfish? the one's asking me to stay? or me for wanting to just leave quietly?
dont get me wrong her school are being dicks
but i would LOVE IT if she stopped talking to me like i have no idea about what it's like, or what im talking about, as if i havent gone though the same and worse.
because dear lord i would LOVE to be able to go back and you know not be crazy and not try to kill myself and all that fun stuff, because i had a whole fucking plan for my life and it was taken away from me by my shitty fucking school. they promised me every god damn day that they'd give me my work and that they'd let me take my exams... but they never gave me work (at all) and they decided like a month before exams after a year of chaising them that, oh wait... no. you cant take your exams we're making you re-sit year 11 because of our own lazyness. so it's too fucking bad that you want to leave this hell hole due to the fact that coming here makes you ill to the point where you cant eat, sleep, move or breath. but you know, sucks to be you.
and because i was afraid i was actually going to kill myself, or you know die trying not to, i figured it was best to leave, because i was so scared of myself that i just wanted to make it stop since everyone is always fucking tell me how i cant kill myself and i cant cut myself and i cant have aniti depressants and i cant have anti anxieities and i cant go to therapy because they're all just assholes who judge wayy to quickly and never wait to listen to everythinbefore they start judging, because i have a lot of shit okay? i am very fucked up, but everyone just assumes its just mum dieing and shit, but i was depressed before then and lord knows im depressed after.
and i just
would like to not be talked to like all the shit didnt happen to me.
becuase it did, and it hurts to be spoken to like i have no idea.
when i know all too fucking well
and thankfully her school itsnt even screwing her over to the same level mine did
which im really glad about
seriously
but just please
stop talking to me like i have no idea
it sucks that your school is screwing around with you, they have no right, this is your life they're fucking with and its not right.
but yelling at me isnt going to solve anything...
it'l just make me sad and bitter (er than i already am)
night yola. it's a long life, and even though people are always telling me not to cut or kill myself, i cut my arm last week, really badlly, and no one noticed, or if they did they didnt say a thing, so, i mean, who's really the one being selfish? the one's asking me to stay? or me for wanting to just leave quietly?
