Its funny cause no one is ever going to read this :3
Posted by bronwen wild on Tuesday, June 5, 2012
You know what?
Fuck it
Fuck this
I tried so fucking hard with every single god damned one of you
I tired so hard to make you happy, to be there for you, to see past my problems as best I could so that they didnt cloud my judgment or make you feel bad/down
When you all started to drift away I did all I could to try and get you back, to get you to stay
Some may argue that I didnt do much...
But its scary... talking to anyone... even my best friends. and so saying hey to you .. while it doesn't seem you wanna talk scares the living shit out of me.
and then sometimes you wont reply...and then I'll take that as you dont want to talk, so I leave you alone for a while. It doesn't mean I dont want to talk. I just don't want to bug you
But after a year...
I'm kinda tired of trying
I mean if any of you were trying even a little It'd be alright....
And dont get me started on my so called best friend
you know what sian? my dad wouldn't give me any money that weekend... And he had shouted at me for nearly an hour just cause I dared ask him for a lift somewhere, for the first time in months...The only reason I had any money that weekend is because in the morning before I left dad came up to me and was like "heres some money, you havent eaten anything in like 5 weeks so i figured I could afford to give you a tenner"
So Im tired of caring. You left me when I needed you, yet I was still there for you. Fuck off you miserable selfish cow and stop fucking whining for once.
Im just so tired of hurting because of you guys
If ya'll dont want me in your life all you have to do is say
I wont argue
I wont be upset with you
I'll leave
It's simple
I'd rather you just say
Because honestly its the not knowing thats killing me
So please... if you have to leave please just go
Dont hover
Dont come back every so often
and DONT
DONT YOU DARE
EVER
Think you have the right to pretend you care about me
Im so tired of that too... If you want someone to talk about shit with, im your lass
But dont think that give you the right to even pretend to give a fuck about me
because I know you dont
So yeah. Basically I'd rather be alone than keep being mind fucked by my 'friends'
All I ask is that before you go, you say goodbye.
If I ever meant anything to any of you... just say good bye?
So yeah... Those are some things I'd love to yell at my friends...
Its nearly 7 am so im probably going to regret this later... but at the moment im so pissed off with the world that I dont give a fuck.
I wish I could say these things to my 'friends' Of course I never will... It'd be nice though.
*sigh* How will I ever get out of this Labyrinth?
Fuck it
Fuck this
I tried so fucking hard with every single god damned one of you
I tired so hard to make you happy, to be there for you, to see past my problems as best I could so that they didnt cloud my judgment or make you feel bad/down
When you all started to drift away I did all I could to try and get you back, to get you to stay
Some may argue that I didnt do much...
But its scary... talking to anyone... even my best friends. and so saying hey to you .. while it doesn't seem you wanna talk scares the living shit out of me.
and then sometimes you wont reply...and then I'll take that as you dont want to talk, so I leave you alone for a while. It doesn't mean I dont want to talk. I just don't want to bug you
But after a year...
I'm kinda tired of trying
I mean if any of you were trying even a little It'd be alright....
And dont get me started on my so called best friend
you know what sian? my dad wouldn't give me any money that weekend... And he had shouted at me for nearly an hour just cause I dared ask him for a lift somewhere, for the first time in months...The only reason I had any money that weekend is because in the morning before I left dad came up to me and was like "heres some money, you havent eaten anything in like 5 weeks so i figured I could afford to give you a tenner"
So Im tired of caring. You left me when I needed you, yet I was still there for you. Fuck off you miserable selfish cow and stop fucking whining for once.
Im just so tired of hurting because of you guys
If ya'll dont want me in your life all you have to do is say
I wont argue
I wont be upset with you
I'll leave
It's simple
I'd rather you just say
Because honestly its the not knowing thats killing me
So please... if you have to leave please just go
Dont hover
Dont come back every so often
and DONT
DONT YOU DARE
EVER
Think you have the right to pretend you care about me
Im so tired of that too... If you want someone to talk about shit with, im your lass
But dont think that give you the right to even pretend to give a fuck about me
because I know you dont
So yeah. Basically I'd rather be alone than keep being mind fucked by my 'friends'
All I ask is that before you go, you say goodbye.
If I ever meant anything to any of you... just say good bye?
So yeah... Those are some things I'd love to yell at my friends...
Its nearly 7 am so im probably going to regret this later... but at the moment im so pissed off with the world that I dont give a fuck.
I wish I could say these things to my 'friends' Of course I never will... It'd be nice though.
*sigh* How will I ever get out of this Labyrinth?
