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right so
i have this weird thing with fireworks
like when im right there
like
when i know there are going to be fireworks
and i can see the fireworks
and know exactly what direction to expect them from
fireworks are rad and pretty as all hell
and like i find the science behind them cool and like its just really nifty

HOWEVER

unexpected fireworks creep me out
like
untill i know where they are coming from
and like have fully rationalized in my head that they are fireworks
they make m really uncomfortable

not to the extent storms do
because storms really put the buhjeezus up me
but yeah

fireworks man
not a fan of an unexpected firework

and im not entirely sure why im writing this here. i mean it's been a while right?
like today has maybe been one of my worst days since i've moved and by all means its still been a good day
i've just wanted to cry for no apparent reason
but that may just be hormones

things are good yola
i mean i stil need to find a job so they're not THAT good
but they are better
and well...
it feels like a whole new world

I always knew i needed to just get away from that place
and oh boy was i right.

I dont really have much more to talk about so im probably going to go

but i will just add
for some context to a rather random fireworks rant
that some fireworks started going off about an hour ago on both sides of my flat
and it creeped me out.

so yeah

stay chill yola

I'll see you soon.