im trying
Posted by bronwen wild on Wednesday, March 19, 2014
im trying to get better
honestly I am
I've been getting up at 6 am so i can struggle to get fit without anyone seeing
I've been buying myself makeup so I can make myself feel pretty
I listen to music that makes me happy
And watch shows that either I enjoy for the dumb love story ( srsly kdrama is the best if you just want to switch off and watch some romantic crap) or because they are interesting to me
I read good books
I dress in a way i like
I dont let myself cut
I look after my skin
I'm eating better
I drink tea because its yummy
I cut out the toxic people of my life
Im planning for the future
But
Im still ugly.... im still unhappy...im still stuck ... and im still very much alone.... im still tired... maybe more so...
Im trying yola
But i dont know what else to do?
People keep telling me to try harder... or that im not trying at all... but i dont know what else to do... because i dont even feel that bad sometimes... but then it comes back and its worse than before... like to make up for the few good moments I get a day... I feel like utter shit and worthless 200% more than usual... and i know im not good and not okay because i've been avoiding talking to people... like everyone... i dont want to talk to anyone. I dont want to. Dont make me.
I dont know what to do yola.
Im trying. I swear to god im trying.
honestly I am
I've been getting up at 6 am so i can struggle to get fit without anyone seeing
I've been buying myself makeup so I can make myself feel pretty
I listen to music that makes me happy
And watch shows that either I enjoy for the dumb love story ( srsly kdrama is the best if you just want to switch off and watch some romantic crap) or because they are interesting to me
I read good books
I dress in a way i like
I dont let myself cut
I look after my skin
I'm eating better
I drink tea because its yummy
I cut out the toxic people of my life
Im planning for the future
But
Im still ugly.... im still unhappy...im still stuck ... and im still very much alone.... im still tired... maybe more so...
Im trying yola
But i dont know what else to do?
People keep telling me to try harder... or that im not trying at all... but i dont know what else to do... because i dont even feel that bad sometimes... but then it comes back and its worse than before... like to make up for the few good moments I get a day... I feel like utter shit and worthless 200% more than usual... and i know im not good and not okay because i've been avoiding talking to people... like everyone... i dont want to talk to anyone. I dont want to. Dont make me.
I dont know what to do yola.
Im trying. I swear to god im trying.
