my mother would have been 48 today,

but instead she is three and a half years gone

the world is cruel

cruel for taking her

cruel for not caring

cruel for leaving me behind

and infinitely cruel for making it so that I must pretend to be unaffected on days such as this

as if this short time has been enough to erase the 14 years she was with me

as if im not totally lost without her here.



people only care long enough for the lie to pass my lips.
then they are happy to return to their ignorant bliss.