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I just really wanna prove them wrong you know?
i've spent so fucking much of my life depressed without a single clue of what i want to do or where i want to end up
hell for a lot of my life i didnt see a future past 17
i didnt see myself letting me live that long
but im still here
getting better
moving on
and holy shit every day i dont want to kill myself is a day that my heart beats stronger
its day where my need to prove to myself that i can make myself proud
that i can wake up and look at the person i am and be proud
that i wont have regrets
because i regret so much
i want to build a life that will outshine those mistakes
i want to be good enough
i want to be good enough for myself

but god do I want to prove them wrong
they never believed in me
they'd always pretend to
their lip service was second to none
but they never meant a word
im going to make them eat their doubt
im going to make them look at me and think 'wow'

i will not just go through the motions
i have an idea
and what a crime it would be to waste such an idea
such a dream
such a drive
im scared to death
but im more scared of never doing it
of never getting the chance
i will prove them wrong
i will change their minds
i will make them see my worth
i will not be pitiable my whole life through
i was once 'bright' and had my whole future ahead of me
and trust me
i still do