I rambled I'm sorry.
Posted by bronwen wild on Sunday, July 15, 2012
Okay so I had written something but it went on forever so im going to re-write and summarize now that i know whats wrong.
Okay so one. I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE Posts that are like "Like this if you hate cancer.... or Like this if you think this is cute..." Or such
Piss off okay
We know you dont care really
And OF COURSE WE ALL WISH CANCER DIDN'T EXIST! I do not need to 'Share' a picture of a dying girl to prove this.
So fuck OFF with it!
And two
Its going to be three years (if I include the year where I have to prove im serious about it) Till I can go on T... or really get anything done.
So, for three years, im going to be some in between freak. Trying as hard as he might to look like a guy, but sounding like a fucking girl.
And then I have college to worry about. cause I REALLY REALLY dont want my first impression on them to be that weird Trans guy. And I wont even be able to bind and shit cause my jacket wont fit right, and it'll probs be too warm.
and also my main thing which is why all of this has gotten to me, is because i've been feeling a tad meh toward being single. and then realized that being trans wont help with my forever alone problem i have going.
Which is crap
But then ah well
I dont hate myself as much anymore
which is nice
and hell if i get REALLLLLLLLLYYYYY desperate. I'll just remind Sam I'm male xD (kidding, so much kidding)
It just gets to me sometimes. and then I watch Lucas with Jenna and its just like *tears* because I love Twin. but have so so much love for Nova for being so supportive towards him over the years. Like I watched a trailer for my other me the other day, and Jenna was just so gracious and lovely. and man I just have so much love and respect for her. and her family, for accepting twin better than his own family did.
But yeah, that kinda make me sad, because I know that I probably wont ever have that. And I definitely wont have someone there for me like that.
But oh well
I will continue to love them :3
God damn I've rambled again....
I'll let the top know this
and I apologize
though this is still shorter
and less whiny than the other one
and my thoughts are far more collected :3
*notes* okay so literaly I'd just posted this when I saw there was a new twin and nova video. Im now happy again. and cannot stop laughing as always. Gah I love those two :3 OH AND VAL! But she wasn't there :( :3
Okay so one. I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE Posts that are like "Like this if you hate cancer.... or Like this if you think this is cute..." Or such
Piss off okay
We know you dont care really
And OF COURSE WE ALL WISH CANCER DIDN'T EXIST! I do not need to 'Share' a picture of a dying girl to prove this.
So fuck OFF with it!
And two
Its going to be three years (if I include the year where I have to prove im serious about it) Till I can go on T... or really get anything done.
So, for three years, im going to be some in between freak. Trying as hard as he might to look like a guy, but sounding like a fucking girl.
And then I have college to worry about. cause I REALLY REALLY dont want my first impression on them to be that weird Trans guy. And I wont even be able to bind and shit cause my jacket wont fit right, and it'll probs be too warm.
and also my main thing which is why all of this has gotten to me, is because i've been feeling a tad meh toward being single. and then realized that being trans wont help with my forever alone problem i have going.
Which is crap
But then ah well
I dont hate myself as much anymore
which is nice
and hell if i get REALLLLLLLLLYYYYY desperate. I'll just remind Sam I'm male xD (kidding, so much kidding)
It just gets to me sometimes. and then I watch Lucas with Jenna and its just like *tears* because I love Twin. but have so so much love for Nova for being so supportive towards him over the years. Like I watched a trailer for my other me the other day, and Jenna was just so gracious and lovely. and man I just have so much love and respect for her. and her family, for accepting twin better than his own family did.
But yeah, that kinda make me sad, because I know that I probably wont ever have that. And I definitely wont have someone there for me like that.
But oh well
I will continue to love them :3
God damn I've rambled again....
I'll let the top know this
and I apologize
though this is still shorter
and less whiny than the other one
and my thoughts are far more collected :3
*notes* okay so literaly I'd just posted this when I saw there was a new twin and nova video. Im now happy again. and cannot stop laughing as always. Gah I love those two :3 OH AND VAL! But she wasn't there :( :3
