I love how my brain just tends to ramble on and on :3
Posted by bronwen wild on Saturday, May 5, 2012
BLLLAARRRGGGLE! annd stuff..... My belly is all stabby and hurty and I dont like it T_T And im bored of being at home T_T But due to my massive lack of friend..or at least friends who are wiling to go to carms or somewhere else (cause for some reason a lot of them would rather spend a day In Emlyn... T_T) I am stuck at home. And I dont even know if im supposed to be doing my exams cause no ones told me anything... and my belly was an asshole so I coudln't go to school this week.. well no, I couldn't really do anything... fecking new pain ¬_¬
FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK I just need to get out of this house... now and forever.. and never look at my dads drunken ugly, angry face ever again... Leave him to live in the fucking caravan and drink beer. I dont care what he dose. I just need to get away before he says something and Im not in the mood to ignore it. Cause my patience with snide comments and offhand remarks oh and the outright insults is running low... but my tolerance for his poor me act is pretty much at zero these days... And Its not gonna be pretty when I do snap :3
Oh yeah and of course I have so much wonderful stress about college.. Cause I went from being totally sure that either way would be fine.. to going... Oh fuck both of these were awful choices... cause yah.. I'd love to do catering.. And then either have my own business or be a manager or some shit.... But at the same time thats like... Working your hole life while other people are out and having fun... But I still think I'd love it... And if I end up doing it I can if it came to it move out.. even to carms... cause Like theres a bus.. and it doesnt leave all that early. it'd be fine ^_^
And the Aber course... to do my GCSE's again... Well yeah, thats good, and practical... And if I do that I could go on to do whatever... and since its only a year.. Not that long till I can move on to something else... But idealy at the moment that would be something along the lines of nursing or caring :3 And when I think about it sometimes that seems like my best option.. but then it doesnt.. and with it being in aber... I'd have to stay here... cause theres no way I could afford to live in aber... its a uni town... And the bus to college is just up the road from here.... GAHHHHHH I dont know.... and im stressed and worried.. Mostly about what'll happen about where I live to be honest... I mean Its the smallest pettiest thing I have going on right now... But its the one getting to me the most "/
So yeah thats my ramble for tonight... Im just going to go off and die now... Night night.. "/ x
FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK I just need to get out of this house... now and forever.. and never look at my dads drunken ugly, angry face ever again... Leave him to live in the fucking caravan and drink beer. I dont care what he dose. I just need to get away before he says something and Im not in the mood to ignore it. Cause my patience with snide comments and offhand remarks oh and the outright insults is running low... but my tolerance for his poor me act is pretty much at zero these days... And Its not gonna be pretty when I do snap :3
Oh yeah and of course I have so much wonderful stress about college.. Cause I went from being totally sure that either way would be fine.. to going... Oh fuck both of these were awful choices... cause yah.. I'd love to do catering.. And then either have my own business or be a manager or some shit.... But at the same time thats like... Working your hole life while other people are out and having fun... But I still think I'd love it... And if I end up doing it I can if it came to it move out.. even to carms... cause Like theres a bus.. and it doesnt leave all that early. it'd be fine ^_^
And the Aber course... to do my GCSE's again... Well yeah, thats good, and practical... And if I do that I could go on to do whatever... and since its only a year.. Not that long till I can move on to something else... But idealy at the moment that would be something along the lines of nursing or caring :3 And when I think about it sometimes that seems like my best option.. but then it doesnt.. and with it being in aber... I'd have to stay here... cause theres no way I could afford to live in aber... its a uni town... And the bus to college is just up the road from here.... GAHHHHHH I dont know.... and im stressed and worried.. Mostly about what'll happen about where I live to be honest... I mean Its the smallest pettiest thing I have going on right now... But its the one getting to me the most "/
So yeah thats my ramble for tonight... Im just going to go off and die now... Night night.. "/ x
