I hate everything.
Posted by bronwen wild on Saturday, June 30, 2012
I am such an effing coward
I mean im going to have to tell people sooner or later
I dont want to
But ya know
its either I tell them, or awkward questions will start to pop up
Maybe I dont have to tell anyone
Its not like my friends ever invite me out with them or anything
or even talk to me
well thats a depressing thought
fuck it im going to watch more twin videos
He makes me feel better and him and Val are just... well they're pretty fucking amazing
and I WISH i had someone to go to Alcon with so I could like I unno, see them from afar? cause theres no way I'd have the balls to go up and say hi
*sigh*
I miss having friends and people to talk to
God damn it trin where did you go?
Like cause if there was anyone in my life who would understand or at least be able to deal with this shit it would be you. but you're not here. And im scared. Cause I already know what my dads reaction will be, and its gonna scare away a lot of my friends. fucking hell why the fuck cant I be normal?! Like, why cant I just be a bog standard girl? no bullshit no nothing. Cause like. Im okay with this. But other people wont be. and thats scary. And its really making want to just ignore this hole thing and to act like nothing's wrong and to pretend im still the same person as ever.
Yup. ima do that. Fuck happiness. Im not ready to lose everyone yet.
Im sorry for being such a downer and whining a lot, (I should apologize on tumblr too) this is just kinda scary. And it sucks cause its like. I finally figured out how to be happy! But everyone will hate me, or wont understand, or might be scared away. and that fucking sucks. so okay. This will probably be my last post on this. cause well... No point dwelling on it or whining about it.
im sorry
I'll shut up now.
Uh bye yola I guess.
I mean im going to have to tell people sooner or later
I dont want to
But ya know
its either I tell them, or awkward questions will start to pop up
Maybe I dont have to tell anyone
Its not like my friends ever invite me out with them or anything
or even talk to me
well thats a depressing thought
fuck it im going to watch more twin videos
He makes me feel better and him and Val are just... well they're pretty fucking amazing
and I WISH i had someone to go to Alcon with so I could like I unno, see them from afar? cause theres no way I'd have the balls to go up and say hi
*sigh*
I miss having friends and people to talk to
God damn it trin where did you go?
Like cause if there was anyone in my life who would understand or at least be able to deal with this shit it would be you. but you're not here. And im scared. Cause I already know what my dads reaction will be, and its gonna scare away a lot of my friends. fucking hell why the fuck cant I be normal?! Like, why cant I just be a bog standard girl? no bullshit no nothing. Cause like. Im okay with this. But other people wont be. and thats scary. And its really making want to just ignore this hole thing and to act like nothing's wrong and to pretend im still the same person as ever.
Yup. ima do that. Fuck happiness. Im not ready to lose everyone yet.
Im sorry for being such a downer and whining a lot, (I should apologize on tumblr too) this is just kinda scary. And it sucks cause its like. I finally figured out how to be happy! But everyone will hate me, or wont understand, or might be scared away. and that fucking sucks. so okay. This will probably be my last post on this. cause well... No point dwelling on it or whining about it.
im sorry
I'll shut up now.
Uh bye yola I guess.
