I had a rant....its quite angry...
Posted by bronwen wild on Monday, July 9, 2012
Okay so I'll admit that im in a bad mood today anyway
But
Something just occurred to me ( as these things tend to do)
I actually do hate my father
I have no affection
Kind feeling
nice thoughts
I hate the man
I hate everything about him
He makes my skin crawl
Hes creepy, vindictive, manipulative and a horrible little man
I will stay here sure
I will tolerate him
But be sure that next time he gets a little tiffy with me about money hes going to be well put in his fucking place
cause see my child benifits are pretty much his only income
If I weren't still living here he'd have no money
No time to waste going to see his stupid fucking girlfriend
No time to just not feel like working today
Cause he'd have to fucking work
Cause for all his whining about money
Maybe if he'd have worked for the 8 years we'd lived here instead of just the past two years he'd have some fucking money
But no that didnt occur to him
Because he had his little fucking wifey to work for him
And then he bitched at her if she so much as bought us clothes!
I dont know what world he lived in but it was a strange one
He used to even get upset with her when our food bills were a lot
But that didnt stop him eating and drinking like he did
No
He just took away from her
Yet more
And I hate it!
Because Its my fault
She would have left
But I was too young
and she wanted us to grow up in a family
with a mum
and a dad
so she stayed
because of me
Im the reason my mum was miserable for 14 years
because by the time I was old enough to understand this shit my brother was still older than I am now
7 years age difference
why couldn't one of the others survived ?
I made my mum so unhappy in so many fucking ways
But it was him
He hurt her more
I never meant to
Be he did it seemingly intentionally
He made my mum unhappy while she was dieing
And I dont give a FUCK if forgiving is the only way out of the Labyrinth
With this one Alaska is right
Straight and fast is the only fucking way
And trust me on this yola when I say
That man will never see me again when I leave this house
Not untill the day I can dance on his fucking grave
I dont get angry
And I dont hold grudges
He is my only exception to that rule
He will never be forgiven
and He will always remain the only person who has seen me truly angry.
good night yola.
But
Something just occurred to me ( as these things tend to do)
I actually do hate my father
I have no affection
Kind feeling
nice thoughts
I hate the man
I hate everything about him
He makes my skin crawl
Hes creepy, vindictive, manipulative and a horrible little man
I will stay here sure
I will tolerate him
But be sure that next time he gets a little tiffy with me about money hes going to be well put in his fucking place
cause see my child benifits are pretty much his only income
If I weren't still living here he'd have no money
No time to waste going to see his stupid fucking girlfriend
No time to just not feel like working today
Cause he'd have to fucking work
Cause for all his whining about money
Maybe if he'd have worked for the 8 years we'd lived here instead of just the past two years he'd have some fucking money
But no that didnt occur to him
Because he had his little fucking wifey to work for him
And then he bitched at her if she so much as bought us clothes!
I dont know what world he lived in but it was a strange one
He used to even get upset with her when our food bills were a lot
But that didnt stop him eating and drinking like he did
No
He just took away from her
Yet more
And I hate it!
Because Its my fault
She would have left
But I was too young
and she wanted us to grow up in a family
with a mum
and a dad
so she stayed
because of me
Im the reason my mum was miserable for 14 years
because by the time I was old enough to understand this shit my brother was still older than I am now
7 years age difference
why couldn't one of the others survived ?
I made my mum so unhappy in so many fucking ways
But it was him
He hurt her more
I never meant to
Be he did it seemingly intentionally
He made my mum unhappy while she was dieing
And I dont give a FUCK if forgiving is the only way out of the Labyrinth
With this one Alaska is right
Straight and fast is the only fucking way
And trust me on this yola when I say
That man will never see me again when I leave this house
Not untill the day I can dance on his fucking grave
I dont get angry
And I dont hold grudges
He is my only exception to that rule
He will never be forgiven
and He will always remain the only person who has seen me truly angry.
good night yola.
