right so Im pretty sure I know who's reading this now... and If it is you... I kinda wish you wouldn't....you'll only worry or think about trying to help... when we both know im not really your problem anymore...

But I am 99.8% sure we're not going to finish this course.
My anxiety is horrible, I slept until like three yesterday even though I fell asleep around 2... I just get so tired...
I messed up my shoulder pretty bad aha, but they'll match now! so yay for that!

Im going to MCM though
Kellie's coming
and Gina <3
And Jake (Cant decide if thats a good thing or not)
Its going to be amazing!

I dont know yola.
I just feel crap
cause I can feel everything going to hell again
but this time its actually not my fault
and I cant fix it

I dont want to have wasted a whole year
I dont want to get into cardigan on the back of a sob-story of dieing mums and missing tutors.
I WANT TO HAVE SOMETHING I CAN HOLD so I can maybe show myself im not a useless piece of shit who cant do a single fucking thing right.

I just

I dont know

fuck I just

good night Yola xxxxx