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Hey,
I miss you
Like we still talk
and you're still my friend
but remember when Pipa dupmed you the...second time?
And I said you're my best friend
Totally meant it
why yes
you are number two on my list of guy that have hurt me the most
but still when im sad i can talk to you and its like none of that crap matters as much
And yes I am fully aware that you're probably out with your girlfriend or your friends who dont live several hundred miles away
But I still miss you
And could do with talking to you
Cause I think I may actually be able to talk to you
not about any thing
Its just that
My brain
I dont know
Its like
Talking
Out loud
it feels like im mute
and like I dont want to ever talk again
its my anxiety
I know it is
but when I got like this when I was at that stupid CYC thing with adam
I talked to you and I totally calmed down
And I could kinda use that
because
Like im talking to nick right now
and like im fine
Im talking to him and everything
but like
my heads not in it
god its so hard to explain
its like I have total apathy towards talking and breathing and thinking
Im sorry I know im rambling
but this is the first time in like three days that i've been able to write more than a sentence before zoning out and stuff
i think that was my lot im starting to zone out again,
I might be better soon
goodbye