hey yola
Posted by bronwen wild on Saturday, February 15, 2014
So i'm thinking
Would anyone actually miss me?
Or like how many actually would?
Or how much?
Dumb stuff like that
And when i think about it, its a pretty small number
Though please note these are manily people who i believe are entitled to miss me
So there number one on my list. He is the only person i wont resent for missing me. And thats my brother. He is the best person in the world and is so kind to me its a little overwhealming. He just, i kind of wish he wouldnt miss me. But he is thhe only person i wouldnt get mad at it for, because his saddness wont feel fake or like a waste since he's here for me now, while im actually still live and need him.
The next people to choose would be trickier... i guess my grandparents... i dont really count my grandad though, so my nan mainly... and although shes done and said some pretty horrible things to me, i guess i've given it back too. But i guess she would miss me.
Next i guess would be friends, on this list i would put my best friend and his sister, we never really talk about feelings and stuff, but he's the best guy to hang out with, and his sister is the sweetest, and i care for her, in the sence that i am her carer. And i guess my little big sister fits into here too, i do love her.
Sort of bottom of the list i would put my cousins and their little girl. More because their little girl is the only person (aside from my brother) who i would actually regret leaving, because she is so young and sweet and perfect with such loving parents. I love them all, and they are the only members of my family (again aside from brother dear) that i truely care about.
I guess I should mention G here, and maybe N but G doesnt ever give off an air that she would or indeed does care, and im not sure if N does anymore. He used to, but that was a long while ago.
And thats it. I cant think of anyone else who would, or should miss me. So thats.. how many people? 9? 10 at best? Well to be honest i was expecting worse. Not sure which is sadder, that i was expecting less or that it's still so few.
But i guess thats life.
And those ten people are the assholes that keep asking me to stay but wont stay by me to help me
They just guilt trip me and leave
Because yeah, they all love me so much they dont even notice or care about the horrible new cuts i inflicted upon myself.
And no. I didnt do it for them to notice, or because i wanted attention, i did it foor all my usual reason (being crazy, wanted head to shut up... ect) but it would have been nice for someone to care when its on your wrist in plain sight.
Gyah
I dont know yola
Im just tired and sad
And not all that against the idea of dieing
Like
Seriously
Hmm i got too sad sso i wondered off and got some milk.. feeling less sad now... (well...) so im going to go.
Night yola
Would anyone actually miss me?
Or like how many actually would?
Or how much?
Dumb stuff like that
And when i think about it, its a pretty small number
Though please note these are manily people who i believe are entitled to miss me
So there number one on my list. He is the only person i wont resent for missing me. And thats my brother. He is the best person in the world and is so kind to me its a little overwhealming. He just, i kind of wish he wouldnt miss me. But he is thhe only person i wouldnt get mad at it for, because his saddness wont feel fake or like a waste since he's here for me now, while im actually still live and need him.
The next people to choose would be trickier... i guess my grandparents... i dont really count my grandad though, so my nan mainly... and although shes done and said some pretty horrible things to me, i guess i've given it back too. But i guess she would miss me.
Next i guess would be friends, on this list i would put my best friend and his sister, we never really talk about feelings and stuff, but he's the best guy to hang out with, and his sister is the sweetest, and i care for her, in the sence that i am her carer. And i guess my little big sister fits into here too, i do love her.
Sort of bottom of the list i would put my cousins and their little girl. More because their little girl is the only person (aside from my brother) who i would actually regret leaving, because she is so young and sweet and perfect with such loving parents. I love them all, and they are the only members of my family (again aside from brother dear) that i truely care about.
I guess I should mention G here, and maybe N but G doesnt ever give off an air that she would or indeed does care, and im not sure if N does anymore. He used to, but that was a long while ago.
And thats it. I cant think of anyone else who would, or should miss me. So thats.. how many people? 9? 10 at best? Well to be honest i was expecting worse. Not sure which is sadder, that i was expecting less or that it's still so few.
But i guess thats life.
And those ten people are the assholes that keep asking me to stay but wont stay by me to help me
They just guilt trip me and leave
Because yeah, they all love me so much they dont even notice or care about the horrible new cuts i inflicted upon myself.
And no. I didnt do it for them to notice, or because i wanted attention, i did it foor all my usual reason (being crazy, wanted head to shut up... ect) but it would have been nice for someone to care when its on your wrist in plain sight.
Gyah
I dont know yola
Im just tired and sad
And not all that against the idea of dieing
Like
Seriously
Hmm i got too sad sso i wondered off and got some milk.. feeling less sad now... (well...) so im going to go.
Night yola
