hello yola
Posted by bronwen wild on Wednesday, July 17, 2013
hey yola
so,
you know, I spend a lot of my time, wondering what to write
I adore writing.
I'm no good at it
but it listens to me in a way no one else does
it will wait with me until i find the words and somehow manage to push them into the right order.
It is silent and calming and honest.
And I love words
And there are so many words
And sometimes its that magnitude of words which drive me to yearn to learn new laguages
but
thats difficult from my bed
but yet
ㅅㅏ랑해요
which are the best words right? SaRangHaeYo...
Saddly people abuse words
these words
I know to be abuse a lot
like MiAnHaeYo
I group those words together quite a lot
But maybe im just a fool who spends too much time alone with words
Becauuse I have a draw full of words writen since I was 11
Sat in this very room suffering from a disease I didn't even understand existed
Watching as my parents fell apart
and as everything I knew ended with words
I find
That the words I write on here are always less poetic, less clear, than the words I write with pen
There is more haste and less feeling while here
inn my books I take my emotions and I try to paint them in words
of course I lack the skill and vocabulary to achive my goal
but I still like my words I write in books far more than my ramblings on here
I think I will always prefer writing to talking.
Writing is for me
And there is no one to judge because no one can see
But talking requires so much effort and thought and people expect you to engage and "participate"
I find a lot more often than I would like that I forget entirely that I am meant to talk at all..
Well while talking at lenngth anyway,
there will simply come a point when I become tired
Tired of talking
I am listening and genuinly do care for what you are saying
I just
forget that talking is required
It used to happen after i'd have to do stuff for a couple of days in a row
anxiety would have worn me out and I would just end up stuck in my own head unable to talk, forgetting how to talk
but now it can happen after hours
I mean
I know I dont talk a lot during the day
or well, ever really
aside from with gina over skype or with Dyls when I see him,
But I sing
oh how I love to sing
I suck
of course
but I dont know if its cause it makes me breath or because I dont have to think or what
but singing calms me heart
Its like writing but with my voice
because words are still the focal point
its all about words
And maybe thats why I like the Koran bands so much
Because despite their pretty as fuck faces and dumb ass clothes and hair styles and fucking just them being dumb asses
Their music tends to mean a lot more (aside from wolf but we dont talk about wolf that song is so fucking dumb I could cry, we waited a year for that? A FUCKING YEAR SM ARE YOU KIDDING?) than western music does, it sounds the same but it has words and substance... even if most of it is shitty love songs.
they dont just make women objects and sing about materialistic shit
most of them are cute 18 year olds who are shy and dumb singing about how they like this one girl..
or their VIXX in which case they are supperhuman morons who are sexy demons half the time and sexy angels the other half..
I dont even remember what my point was
aside from Korean is a pretty language and I adore listening to people speak it
and that words mean everything
and that im tired
and i needed to talk to someone
sorry this is super long isnt it?
goodnight yola
I feel
In the spirit of this post a should add at the end Jeremy's very good words
Saranghaeyo i han madi cham joun mal
(forgets how to spell anything ever in romanized hangul so switches to english translation which will proably be verry baddddddddddddd)
I love you these are very good words
when out family goes to sleep at night they'll give and recive these words
I love you these are very good words
Words that Jeremy wants to give to her too
I like these words that make me happy every day
I like these words they make me joyful everyday
I like these words they make my heart keep beating faster
I love you these are very good words
I-I really like these words
I love -I love you...
-cries into oblivion because that part is so sad why cant Ko Minam love jeremy OTL-
they really are very good words though
they sound better in korean though
night yola
so,
you know, I spend a lot of my time, wondering what to write
I adore writing.
I'm no good at it
but it listens to me in a way no one else does
it will wait with me until i find the words and somehow manage to push them into the right order.
It is silent and calming and honest.
And I love words
And there are so many words
And sometimes its that magnitude of words which drive me to yearn to learn new laguages
but
thats difficult from my bed
but yet
ㅅㅏ랑해요
which are the best words right? SaRangHaeYo...
Saddly people abuse words
these words
I know to be abuse a lot
like MiAnHaeYo
I group those words together quite a lot
But maybe im just a fool who spends too much time alone with words
Becauuse I have a draw full of words writen since I was 11
Sat in this very room suffering from a disease I didn't even understand existed
Watching as my parents fell apart
and as everything I knew ended with words
I find
That the words I write on here are always less poetic, less clear, than the words I write with pen
There is more haste and less feeling while here
inn my books I take my emotions and I try to paint them in words
of course I lack the skill and vocabulary to achive my goal
but I still like my words I write in books far more than my ramblings on here
I think I will always prefer writing to talking.
Writing is for me
And there is no one to judge because no one can see
But talking requires so much effort and thought and people expect you to engage and "participate"
I find a lot more often than I would like that I forget entirely that I am meant to talk at all..
Well while talking at lenngth anyway,
there will simply come a point when I become tired
Tired of talking
I am listening and genuinly do care for what you are saying
I just
forget that talking is required
It used to happen after i'd have to do stuff for a couple of days in a row
anxiety would have worn me out and I would just end up stuck in my own head unable to talk, forgetting how to talk
but now it can happen after hours
I mean
I know I dont talk a lot during the day
or well, ever really
aside from with gina over skype or with Dyls when I see him,
But I sing
oh how I love to sing
I suck
of course
but I dont know if its cause it makes me breath or because I dont have to think or what
but singing calms me heart
Its like writing but with my voice
because words are still the focal point
its all about words
And maybe thats why I like the Koran bands so much
Because despite their pretty as fuck faces and dumb ass clothes and hair styles and fucking just them being dumb asses
Their music tends to mean a lot more (aside from wolf but we dont talk about wolf that song is so fucking dumb I could cry, we waited a year for that? A FUCKING YEAR SM ARE YOU KIDDING?) than western music does, it sounds the same but it has words and substance... even if most of it is shitty love songs.
they dont just make women objects and sing about materialistic shit
most of them are cute 18 year olds who are shy and dumb singing about how they like this one girl..
or their VIXX in which case they are supperhuman morons who are sexy demons half the time and sexy angels the other half..
I dont even remember what my point was
aside from Korean is a pretty language and I adore listening to people speak it
and that words mean everything
and that im tired
and i needed to talk to someone
sorry this is super long isnt it?
goodnight yola
I feel
In the spirit of this post a should add at the end Jeremy's very good words
Saranghaeyo i han madi cham joun mal
(forgets how to spell anything ever in romanized hangul so switches to english translation which will proably be verry baddddddddddddd)
I love you these are very good words
when out family goes to sleep at night they'll give and recive these words
I love you these are very good words
Words that Jeremy wants to give to her too
I like these words that make me happy every day
I like these words they make me joyful everyday
I like these words they make my heart keep beating faster
I love you these are very good words
I-I really like these words
I love -I love you...
-cries into oblivion because that part is so sad why cant Ko Minam love jeremy OTL-
they really are very good words though
they sound better in korean though
night yola
