I dont want to go to the cinema tomorrow.
I want to crawl in a hole and cry. Dieing is also in the table.
I feel like crap and dont know what to do with myself. stuck somewhere between crying and numb. God I was doing so fucking well a few weeks ago, whats gone wrong here?
Fuck it, im bored of people seeing me sad. From now on happy me. Im going to be thin and happy by summer. Plan? I think yes. Well I'll already be happy, but ya know the thin thing will take a few weeks :3
So yeah :) HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY ^_^ Ah my gosh Ima be so happy people will think im all better ^_^ Hehe See you soon yola ^_^ Nighty night xxx

I was reminded of this quote

Margo: I think I maybe know why [he died].
Q: Why?
Margo: Maybe all the strings inside him broke.

And both in and out of context it fits how I feel right now.
In context more so I feel..
But anyway.. Im actually going now. night yola.