god im tired
Posted by bronwen wild on Tuesday, February 18, 2014
Everyone has someone else, someone better, someone theynot only pick over me bick first
With D it's any one of the guys.. I always come after all of them... I go watch the film no one else wants to go see with him
With G she has Lu or any of her school friends, cause you know, i live hundreds of fucking miles away
With my sister, she has her guy friends from uni and her travelling...
My brother has his girlfriend and mike
Im not jealous.
No really.
Dont look at me like that.
Im not.
I just
I wonder why they insist on keeping me here
When my existence has very little impact on their lives
I mean i go weeks... months sometimes without talking to one or all of them
And they never seem to miss me or mind
Im just tired of trying so god damn hard for people who dont give a fuck anyway
I've lost everyone I love
I dont trust a single fucker anymore
And no one seems to care
Not a single god damn person gives a shit
So why the fuck am i not aloud to kill myself?
Will the world really miss me?
Because i dont think it will somehow
Since no one fucking misses me
Ever
I go months without seeing the outside world
And no one cares
I could die here and no one would know
Im no ones first choice and no one gives a fuck
So why are they so fucking intent on making me feel bad about killing myself?
It wont affect them in the slightest
I know i've been saying it for years yola
But im so tired
I'm finding it hard to see the point anymore
And im not even that suicidal
Also can someone please stop this fucking anxiety
Im chewing my nails and gums to peices
But it never fucking stops
With D it's any one of the guys.. I always come after all of them... I go watch the film no one else wants to go see with him
With G she has Lu or any of her school friends, cause you know, i live hundreds of fucking miles away
With my sister, she has her guy friends from uni and her travelling...
My brother has his girlfriend and mike
Im not jealous.
No really.
Dont look at me like that.
Im not.
I just
I wonder why they insist on keeping me here
When my existence has very little impact on their lives
I mean i go weeks... months sometimes without talking to one or all of them
And they never seem to miss me or mind
Im just tired of trying so god damn hard for people who dont give a fuck anyway
I've lost everyone I love
I dont trust a single fucker anymore
And no one seems to care
Not a single god damn person gives a shit
So why the fuck am i not aloud to kill myself?
Will the world really miss me?
Because i dont think it will somehow
Since no one fucking misses me
Ever
I go months without seeing the outside world
And no one cares
I could die here and no one would know
Im no ones first choice and no one gives a fuck
So why are they so fucking intent on making me feel bad about killing myself?
It wont affect them in the slightest
I know i've been saying it for years yola
But im so tired
I'm finding it hard to see the point anymore
And im not even that suicidal
Also can someone please stop this fucking anxiety
Im chewing my nails and gums to peices
But it never fucking stops
