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Posted by bronwen wild on Saturday, September 14, 2013
No one will kiss your scars
no one will find them beautiful
and there is nothing romantic or beautiful about them, or depression
or anxiety for that matter
its not for cute shy girls who never fit in who like reading and spending time alone
who wear glasses and have long flowey hair
who will meet this perfect guy
who will fall in love with her quiet ways
and how she loves books
and when he sees her scars will tell her he loves her while kissing them
there is no such thing as the pixey dream girl
and the perfect boy is far less remarcable than that
and to forget that is a crime
We are all just people fighting our own battles
and trust me, if theres one thing i've found its that there is nothing beautiful about suffering
because anxiety isnt being a little shy and awkward
and being depressed isnt about wearing long jumpers and having a sob story
it is a chemical imbalance in your brain
and love will not fix that
And why would someone love you for your scars?
surly if someone loves you they should but hurt by them, not in an asshole way
not in a way that makes it about them
but they should hate to see you hurt yourself or to see you have
that doesnt mean they have to hate them
god
no
just
why would someone who loves you love the fact that you hated yourself enough to do that?
** change of topic**
Okay, so Jiyong's new song (well one of his new ones he's got like four singles out atm O_O) Crooked.
I love it so much
and i havent propperly vented to anyone and i really need to because i dont think people understand how fucking amazing this song is and i just
i feel it
okay
so on the surface, it sounds like a really up beat track, its got a catchy tune and the chorus is catchy and it all just sounds really good to the ear and suits his voice perfectly, which of course it does because he wrote it and Jiyong is a fucking genious, but yeah. Its just upbeat and catchy and generally feel great and makes you want to dance and be happy
but then, you get into the lyrics. And it just changes everything. And opens up this whole other side of the song.
"I used to believe in you alone and I was happy
But like a joke, I am left alone
You used to promise me with your pinky finger
But in the end
Nothing ever lasts forever
In the end, you changed
There is no reason, no sincerity
Take away such a thing as love
Tonight, I’ll be crooked
Leave me alone
I was alone anyway
I have no one, everything is meaningless
Take away the sugar-coated comfort
Tonight, I’ll be crooked" - Crooked. Trans from Kpop Lyrics (they're the best srsly)
Okay so thats like the pre chorus and the actual chorus... and those lyrics man
"Take away the sugar coated comfort" god thats a lyric right there. Like just look at those words. Those words speak of hurt and betrail and how its all just become to much for him to bear so for a night hes just going to let it all go. He's going to let it all out.
Like it just feels like he had someone so close to him and they left him and he feels foolish for believing in them, but most of all the feeling of loss and the pain and sence of displacement that follows from losing someone so close to you and trusting them and following them for them to just leave. Hurts.
And you can hear the pain in his voice because Jiyong has a voice that is very dinamic and very expressive you can hear the feeling.
but then you get into the verses:
"I scream and get dizzy
I vent out of boredom to other couples
I start fights for no reason like a town gangster
Sometimes, I purposely shake my leg, crookedly
The main characters of the movie called this world is you and me
A lonely island, lost and wandering
The empty streets are filled with those who are alone
Unlike my heart, the weather is so damn nice"- Crooked. Lyrics trans from Kpop Lyrics.
So with this you get that it is heart break. And that his heart is broken and he is at odds with himself and the world. Feeling lost and angry he sees other couples still happy and hates them, but he also sees the other people who are alone and feels with them. and if that isnt fucking poetry i dont know what is.
"I’ll put on thick eyeliner, use a whole can of hairspray
Leather pants, leather jacket with a frown
I want to hide my pain and become even more crooked
So you can feel sorry, I’ll spit toward the sky
You’re scared of my crude words and my rough eyes
But actually, I’m afraid, I want to go back but I have nowhere to go
I want to love but no one to love, what am I supposed to do?
I can’t turn it back" - Crooked. Lyric trans from Kpop Lyrics.
Okay so this part right here.
In this you start to see Jiyong just going crazy. or Crooked, as he put it. Essectially falling apart. half of his heart wanting to love the other half angry. But he has no one to love, his love was taken from him so he's left bitter and so the bitter part wins out. He doesnt want to be like this he wants to take it back, but he also wants her to see whats shes done. To feel guilty for what shes done.
But all the time hes trying to mask the pain. Mask it behind an upbeat track, behind his clothes, his makeup behind this fake persona he has created, going out, getting drunk, trying to forget trying to be fine when he knows hes really not and he hates it but he just cant stop.
"Will you not say anything for me tonight?
I didn’t know being alone would be this hard (I miss you)
Will you be my friend tonight?
On this good day, this beautiful day, this day where I miss you
Tonight, I’ll be crooked" - Crooked Lyrics from Kpop Lyrics
This is the last part of the song. and in this part Jiyong lets you see how desperate and broken he is. The music changes (just slightly) and his voice breaks just a tiny bit and becomes a litle more beggins. It has a different composition to the rest of the song and the way he repeats that bit twice and if its more of a mantra to himself. "why didnt you speak to me, cant we just be friends im lost without you, being alone is hard" And its like this is the last straw. And its just so perfect and clever and still my favorite part of this song (aside from the video which I havent even gotten into yet) is the way the lyrics and the music contradic eachother so much. Because the first time I listened to the song, I felt sad, but didnt know why. Like i loved it, and was like öh this song is cute and catchy" but I just had a feeling it was sad, so i looked up the lyrics and sure enough, i felt my heart break. Because its like its another part of the mask. And its so important. Because like in Coup D' ETAT thats a heart breaking song, but it sounds it. This is heart breaking on a whole new level because its like hes trying to hide it. But in the pre chorus, where he goes
"You used to promise me with your pinky finger
But in the end"
its almost as if hes given up. It sounds so sad, and he sounds so tired. its just painfully perfect.
but right then theres the MV
which shows him in various places and situations
Theres happy him drinking in a club. Who passes out in the end.
Theres the him on the run. (from what we dont know) who is crying and shouting.
Theres punk Jiyong who causes somewhat of a scene
G-dragon jiyong who is getting himself all dolled up with slicked back hair and perfect makeup.
Theres a jiyong looking disheveled in a shirt walking alone in an empty street looking like he'd hit you if you looked at him the wrong way. but could also cry for the same reason.
Then theres 'swag' Jiyong in his puffy coat who gets rejected from a night club and is just generally pissed out and drunk and annoyed.
Theres rich play boy Jiyong in his boxers in his posh house who is just sad and forlorn and doesnt know what to do with himself
and then during the last verse there is compleatly broken Jiyong crying on the floor in a bathroom stall.
and the music video jus speaks the volumes that the music cant. not there is much the music misses.
and it just
i havent liked a song this much in a long time
and im VERY VERY bad at putting my thoughts into words and even though I have been rambling here for fucking ever I know I havent been able to put into words most of the things that make this song so important too me and why i have connected to it so much.
it is just so good. and I love it an awful lot and i just love Jiyong an awful lot.
And I kind of hate myself foor not loving him this much for longer. because although I have been a fan of GD for ages, I never really gave him much time.... and then I go listen to Coup D'ETAT and fall in love with the whole album and in turn this song and just a whole new love for him and Big Bang grew. And I found out just how much of his material he writes himself. Because I knew he wrote pretty much all of his music. But i didn't know he also wrote for Big Bang and for other artists in the YG family. Gosh.
I just
This song
Kwon Jiyong
Crooked
So much feels
so much love
im not sorry for rambling
music means a lot to me
and a song hasnt meant this much to me in a long time
my brother calls this stuff rubbish
but this rubish is all thats keeping me alive and happy these days.
So thank you Kwon Jiyong. And please never stop making music.
And also dont listen to people who put you down for your style.
You are the best dressed person I have ever seen. it just floors me every time
even in GO when you're dressed as a really weird frizzy haired freak you still look good
and by that I mean your style is still good. Even if you do look crazed.
I dont know man
All i know is that I love you and you are one of the most unique, diverse and inspired artists around at the moment.
And i just cant find words enough to describe my feelings for you or your music.
so sorry 'bout that.
but yes.
im going to go now.
bye yola <3 <3 <3
no one will find them beautiful
and there is nothing romantic or beautiful about them, or depression
or anxiety for that matter
its not for cute shy girls who never fit in who like reading and spending time alone
who wear glasses and have long flowey hair
who will meet this perfect guy
who will fall in love with her quiet ways
and how she loves books
and when he sees her scars will tell her he loves her while kissing them
there is no such thing as the pixey dream girl
and the perfect boy is far less remarcable than that
and to forget that is a crime
We are all just people fighting our own battles
and trust me, if theres one thing i've found its that there is nothing beautiful about suffering
because anxiety isnt being a little shy and awkward
and being depressed isnt about wearing long jumpers and having a sob story
it is a chemical imbalance in your brain
and love will not fix that
And why would someone love you for your scars?
surly if someone loves you they should but hurt by them, not in an asshole way
not in a way that makes it about them
but they should hate to see you hurt yourself or to see you have
that doesnt mean they have to hate them
god
no
just
why would someone who loves you love the fact that you hated yourself enough to do that?
** change of topic**
Okay, so Jiyong's new song (well one of his new ones he's got like four singles out atm O_O) Crooked.
I love it so much
and i havent propperly vented to anyone and i really need to because i dont think people understand how fucking amazing this song is and i just
i feel it
okay
so on the surface, it sounds like a really up beat track, its got a catchy tune and the chorus is catchy and it all just sounds really good to the ear and suits his voice perfectly, which of course it does because he wrote it and Jiyong is a fucking genious, but yeah. Its just upbeat and catchy and generally feel great and makes you want to dance and be happy
but then, you get into the lyrics. And it just changes everything. And opens up this whole other side of the song.
"I used to believe in you alone and I was happy
But like a joke, I am left alone
You used to promise me with your pinky finger
But in the end
Nothing ever lasts forever
In the end, you changed
There is no reason, no sincerity
Take away such a thing as love
Tonight, I’ll be crooked
Leave me alone
I was alone anyway
I have no one, everything is meaningless
Take away the sugar-coated comfort
Tonight, I’ll be crooked" - Crooked. Trans from Kpop Lyrics (they're the best srsly)
Okay so thats like the pre chorus and the actual chorus... and those lyrics man
"Take away the sugar coated comfort" god thats a lyric right there. Like just look at those words. Those words speak of hurt and betrail and how its all just become to much for him to bear so for a night hes just going to let it all go. He's going to let it all out.
Like it just feels like he had someone so close to him and they left him and he feels foolish for believing in them, but most of all the feeling of loss and the pain and sence of displacement that follows from losing someone so close to you and trusting them and following them for them to just leave. Hurts.
And you can hear the pain in his voice because Jiyong has a voice that is very dinamic and very expressive you can hear the feeling.
but then you get into the verses:
"I scream and get dizzy
I vent out of boredom to other couples
I start fights for no reason like a town gangster
Sometimes, I purposely shake my leg, crookedly
The main characters of the movie called this world is you and me
A lonely island, lost and wandering
The empty streets are filled with those who are alone
Unlike my heart, the weather is so damn nice"- Crooked. Lyrics trans from Kpop Lyrics.
So with this you get that it is heart break. And that his heart is broken and he is at odds with himself and the world. Feeling lost and angry he sees other couples still happy and hates them, but he also sees the other people who are alone and feels with them. and if that isnt fucking poetry i dont know what is.
"I’ll put on thick eyeliner, use a whole can of hairspray
Leather pants, leather jacket with a frown
I want to hide my pain and become even more crooked
So you can feel sorry, I’ll spit toward the sky
You’re scared of my crude words and my rough eyes
But actually, I’m afraid, I want to go back but I have nowhere to go
I want to love but no one to love, what am I supposed to do?
I can’t turn it back" - Crooked. Lyric trans from Kpop Lyrics.
Okay so this part right here.
In this you start to see Jiyong just going crazy. or Crooked, as he put it. Essectially falling apart. half of his heart wanting to love the other half angry. But he has no one to love, his love was taken from him so he's left bitter and so the bitter part wins out. He doesnt want to be like this he wants to take it back, but he also wants her to see whats shes done. To feel guilty for what shes done.
But all the time hes trying to mask the pain. Mask it behind an upbeat track, behind his clothes, his makeup behind this fake persona he has created, going out, getting drunk, trying to forget trying to be fine when he knows hes really not and he hates it but he just cant stop.
"Will you not say anything for me tonight?
I didn’t know being alone would be this hard (I miss you)
Will you be my friend tonight?
On this good day, this beautiful day, this day where I miss you
Tonight, I’ll be crooked" - Crooked Lyrics from Kpop Lyrics
This is the last part of the song. and in this part Jiyong lets you see how desperate and broken he is. The music changes (just slightly) and his voice breaks just a tiny bit and becomes a litle more beggins. It has a different composition to the rest of the song and the way he repeats that bit twice and if its more of a mantra to himself. "why didnt you speak to me, cant we just be friends im lost without you, being alone is hard" And its like this is the last straw. And its just so perfect and clever and still my favorite part of this song (aside from the video which I havent even gotten into yet) is the way the lyrics and the music contradic eachother so much. Because the first time I listened to the song, I felt sad, but didnt know why. Like i loved it, and was like öh this song is cute and catchy" but I just had a feeling it was sad, so i looked up the lyrics and sure enough, i felt my heart break. Because its like its another part of the mask. And its so important. Because like in Coup D' ETAT thats a heart breaking song, but it sounds it. This is heart breaking on a whole new level because its like hes trying to hide it. But in the pre chorus, where he goes
"You used to promise me with your pinky finger
But in the end"
its almost as if hes given up. It sounds so sad, and he sounds so tired. its just painfully perfect.
but right then theres the MV
which shows him in various places and situations
Theres happy him drinking in a club. Who passes out in the end.
Theres the him on the run. (from what we dont know) who is crying and shouting.
Theres punk Jiyong who causes somewhat of a scene
G-dragon jiyong who is getting himself all dolled up with slicked back hair and perfect makeup.
Theres a jiyong looking disheveled in a shirt walking alone in an empty street looking like he'd hit you if you looked at him the wrong way. but could also cry for the same reason.
Then theres 'swag' Jiyong in his puffy coat who gets rejected from a night club and is just generally pissed out and drunk and annoyed.
Theres rich play boy Jiyong in his boxers in his posh house who is just sad and forlorn and doesnt know what to do with himself
and then during the last verse there is compleatly broken Jiyong crying on the floor in a bathroom stall.
and the music video jus speaks the volumes that the music cant. not there is much the music misses.
and it just
i havent liked a song this much in a long time
and im VERY VERY bad at putting my thoughts into words and even though I have been rambling here for fucking ever I know I havent been able to put into words most of the things that make this song so important too me and why i have connected to it so much.
it is just so good. and I love it an awful lot and i just love Jiyong an awful lot.
And I kind of hate myself foor not loving him this much for longer. because although I have been a fan of GD for ages, I never really gave him much time.... and then I go listen to Coup D'ETAT and fall in love with the whole album and in turn this song and just a whole new love for him and Big Bang grew. And I found out just how much of his material he writes himself. Because I knew he wrote pretty much all of his music. But i didn't know he also wrote for Big Bang and for other artists in the YG family. Gosh.
I just
This song
Kwon Jiyong
Crooked
So much feels
so much love
im not sorry for rambling
music means a lot to me
and a song hasnt meant this much to me in a long time
my brother calls this stuff rubbish
but this rubish is all thats keeping me alive and happy these days.
So thank you Kwon Jiyong. And please never stop making music.
And also dont listen to people who put you down for your style.
You are the best dressed person I have ever seen. it just floors me every time
even in GO when you're dressed as a really weird frizzy haired freak you still look good
and by that I mean your style is still good. Even if you do look crazed.
I dont know man
All i know is that I love you and you are one of the most unique, diverse and inspired artists around at the moment.
And i just cant find words enough to describe my feelings for you or your music.
so sorry 'bout that.
but yes.
im going to go now.
bye yola <3 <3 <3
