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Posted by bronwen wild on Friday, September 27, 2013
A girl on tumblr might have killed herself today. And the most I could do for her was send her a message that I cant be sure actually sent, or that she read.
I get she's a stranger but she seemed to be a good,kind, caring person.
but I could do NOTHING for her.
And I hate that.
Im sat on skype atm in a call with two of my good friends.
One is or was my best friend.
Im not sure if im hers anymore though...
But
I've been missing for weeks
becuase I hate skype calls
They're dull
and I get ignored for the most part
But
I try
Even though my anxiety hates them
But
I tried to kill myself
and went missing from the internet for like two weeks
And none of my friends
no i take that back
she didnt even care
or ask where I was
or ask what was so crap that I hid for two weeks
I get you're not good with emotions
but im not good at pretending to be okay
and its hard
You're my best friend. We've talked about moving in together and like I sat with you as you've cried over a relationship that quite frankly i dont fuckin understand. But thats okay, cause if you're happy then i'm happy.
but, like, i dont know
i dont even want to tell you about this stuff
it'd just be nice if you showed you care
because for a little while backk there, me stupidly thinking you care was all that kept me here.
I'm running out of reasons.
So far I'm down to three.
to be fair, I dont see the first two going anywhere
But maybe, one day, I just wont care.
Rest in Piece girl on tumblr, or be okay. Please be okay. Just be okay. I hope to god we weren't too late.
I get she's a stranger but she seemed to be a good,kind, caring person.
but I could do NOTHING for her.
And I hate that.
Im sat on skype atm in a call with two of my good friends.
One is or was my best friend.
Im not sure if im hers anymore though...
But
I've been missing for weeks
becuase I hate skype calls
They're dull
and I get ignored for the most part
But
I try
Even though my anxiety hates them
But
I tried to kill myself
and went missing from the internet for like two weeks
And none of my friends
no i take that back
she didnt even care
or ask where I was
or ask what was so crap that I hid for two weeks
I get you're not good with emotions
but im not good at pretending to be okay
and its hard
You're my best friend. We've talked about moving in together and like I sat with you as you've cried over a relationship that quite frankly i dont fuckin understand. But thats okay, cause if you're happy then i'm happy.
but, like, i dont know
i dont even want to tell you about this stuff
it'd just be nice if you showed you care
because for a little while backk there, me stupidly thinking you care was all that kept me here.
I'm running out of reasons.
So far I'm down to three.
to be fair, I dont see the first two going anywhere
But maybe, one day, I just wont care.
Rest in Piece girl on tumblr, or be okay. Please be okay. Just be okay. I hope to god we weren't too late.
