Happy birthday mam... So todays started well...
Me and padi downstairs talking, being all happy... But my ribbons had fallen down and he saw my arms... And cause he brilliant like that he just gets angry at me. And shouts telling me how stupid I am. Thanks patsi...
Like I need reminding that im a stupid fuckup.
Well this fuckup is just gonna sit here crying for a hole day... So i'll probably be back here later or something...
Bye for now
please kill me.

Edit****
Hey so I went back down to get some water but padi was still there...and we ended up having a lovely chat... Which started out with him all pissed off at me, and me hating him for never understanding or even trying to a little bit.. To me trying to explain...and him just shooting everything down and telling me that my belly pain is my own fault.. And then I pretended to be okay again and have now come back upstairs where I shall sit, feel numb, like crap and wish for death as I curl up and hope for tomorrow :3
Lots of love ^_^ Talk to you later maybe xx