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Posted by bronwen wild on Tuesday, January 21, 2014
So i wrote something happy today... it's not very long, or good... but it's happy... it's this totally bullshit love poem... that the first line just sort of walked into my head, and then the rest sort of followed... and i dont know... its just kind of a big deal because lately i havent been able to write anything... well i've sort of been writing... but its all been miserable shit... like back when i was like 12-13? ish and had my other blog... wayyy back in 2009.. it's all just been this hopeless miserable, terrible, rambling shite about how shit things are... which i guess, in a way means im falling back into how i used to be back then... back when i was alone round 1, though back then, i didnt know what it was like to not be alone, so it didnt hurt quite as much, but it still hurt because i wished to not be alone, in a very stereo typical emo 13 year old kind of way... yeah it was awful. but dont judge me i was young, and if i can hope anything i can hope that im not like that anymore. and i like to think im not. well in many ways i am... still wishing to be out of here, still wishing for some help, still hating my dad, and myself, and the world... i just maybe do it a little differently now.
the main difference being i live for me now, i do shit that makes me happy and tyr to fill my life with as much of it as possible, where as when i was younger i would like things to fit in, lie to fit in, change myself for others, and i dont do that anymore, i like what i like, and dislike what i dislike, though, in terms of disliking im becoming a lot less... judgemental... sort of? like i cant stand miely cyrus (i have no idea how you spell her name im sorry and i cba to google it because im a lazy ass) but the hate she got for that wrecking ball song was... crazy... i mean i dont really see the point in her being naked or licking hammers or whatever, but i mean i dont see the need for a lot of things... but if she wanted to do it, and she felt comfotable doing that then why the fuck not? i mean my main problem with it was how it was thrust in my face every two seconds. yes she has tits, yes she is a girl, yes she is actually in contol of her own body and isnt afriad to fucking show it off, hell if i looked like her i would too, so fucking shut up and let her do whatever the balls she wants, if she aint hurting anybody leave her be...just dont make me watch it cause i dont really care for it.
so yeah in regards to that sort of thing i sort of try to be less... band waggon-ie? like i try to just look at things a bit more... because they are people have a right to be treated as people, so long as they not hurting or offending people.
to be honest i dont even know what my point was with all that...
i just came too say i wrote something happy after months of sadness.
so yay!
and night yola.
the main difference being i live for me now, i do shit that makes me happy and tyr to fill my life with as much of it as possible, where as when i was younger i would like things to fit in, lie to fit in, change myself for others, and i dont do that anymore, i like what i like, and dislike what i dislike, though, in terms of disliking im becoming a lot less... judgemental... sort of? like i cant stand miely cyrus (i have no idea how you spell her name im sorry and i cba to google it because im a lazy ass) but the hate she got for that wrecking ball song was... crazy... i mean i dont really see the point in her being naked or licking hammers or whatever, but i mean i dont see the need for a lot of things... but if she wanted to do it, and she felt comfotable doing that then why the fuck not? i mean my main problem with it was how it was thrust in my face every two seconds. yes she has tits, yes she is a girl, yes she is actually in contol of her own body and isnt afriad to fucking show it off, hell if i looked like her i would too, so fucking shut up and let her do whatever the balls she wants, if she aint hurting anybody leave her be...just dont make me watch it cause i dont really care for it.
so yeah in regards to that sort of thing i sort of try to be less... band waggon-ie? like i try to just look at things a bit more... because they are people have a right to be treated as people, so long as they not hurting or offending people.
to be honest i dont even know what my point was with all that...
i just came too say i wrote something happy after months of sadness.
so yay!
and night yola.
