Browsing Archive: July, 2014

who knows

Posted by bronwen wild on Monday, July 28, 2014,

so im kinda bummed right?
cause i applied for this job at a cinema. its like the only job i've applied for so far that i've actually wanted. like, you know?
the other jobs have just been jobs. something that could "maybe" pay the bills.
but i liked the idea of working in this cinema.
But I failed my interview.
which sucks
and like i hate that they dont even tell you what went wrong
or why you arent right for the job
they just say
"try again next time"
as if next time wont obviously still be a n...
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Forget them, Wendy. Forget them all. Come with me where you'll never, never have to worry about grown up things again

Posted by bronwen wild on Saturday, July 19, 2014,

do you think I could?

sometimes i think i could

you know

I like this person i am now.
I am not exactly a good person
but then,who is?
but this is the version of me i have hated the least
who knows
maybe along the way there'll be a me i like even more
but so far this one is the best
its the the prettiest
or the kindest
or the smartest
but its the happiest
and the most thoughtful
the most likely to succeed

my point is
i think i could
i think i could start again

just leave them all behind and star...
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a nice lil rant

Posted by bronwen wild on Thursday, July 17, 2014,

i think, the main reason why i struggle so much with constant communication with people is because of how quickly i lost all of my friends.
like in the space of six months i lost them all, either through the fact i was depressed and no one knew how to talk to me even when i was around
or because i was shit to be around
or because...
well i still dont really know why i lost her
and like
i've been relatively alone ever since
and i've also changed alot from the girl who was always online
always t...
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a friend

Posted by bronwen wild on Sunday, July 13, 2014,

so i have this friend
the words he writes make my heart stop
he writes in such truth
the kind of truth i have pursued my whole life
he is filled with such sorrow
such confusion
such pain
when i look at him i see my own past reflected in his eyes
we tread different paths
have led different lives
but we have ended up here together
i wish
oh how i wish i could take all i have learned
pass it to him tied up in ribbon
but it doesnt work
i've tired
because the way I saved myself can not save him
we were...
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im going to prove you all wrong.

Posted by bronwen wild on Thursday, July 10, 2014,

I just really wanna prove them wrong you know?
i've spent so fucking much of my life depressed without a single clue of what i want to do or where i want to end up
hell for a lot of my life i didnt see a future past 17
i didnt see myself letting me live that long
but im still here
getting better
moving on
and holy shit every day i dont want to kill myself is a day that my heart beats stronger
its day where my need to prove to myself that i can make myself proud
that i can wake up and look at t...
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its been a while

Posted by bronwen wild on Friday, July 4, 2014,

right so
i have this weird thing with fireworks
like when im right there
like
when i know there are going to be fireworks
and i can see the fireworks
and know exactly what direction to expect them from
fireworks are rad and pretty as all hell
and like i find the science behind them cool and like its just really nifty

HOWEVER

unexpected fireworks creep me out
like
untill i know where they are coming from
and like have fully rationalized in my head that they are fireworks
they make m really unco...
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