Browsing Archive: December, 2014

fuck coming here and writing used to help. it does fuck all these days. got any more adivce?

Posted by bronwen wild on Friday, December 19, 2014,

so, fun fact
im not doing so well
but that stopped being a surprise like three years ago
now its just
whatever
but
see
it still always comes as a surprise to me
because i'll have like an okay day
or five minutes
or something
something for like a sec wont be as awful
and then that will pass
and it will go back to how it was before
and my brain will be like
OH
HOLY FUCK
WHAT IS THIS SWEET INJUSTICE I FEEL BEFORE ME
OH CRUEL FATE
OH MIGHTY WIELDER OF DESTINY
MIGHT YOU COME TO My DOMAIN
AND TAKE FROM...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Tuesday, December 16, 2014,

i just wrote a whole post but closed it like an idiot. oh well
im depressed
loss of interest in everything
including human interaction
amd things i enjoy that usually survive the depression
blahblah blah
leah bought me a cute bowl
im going to eat noodles.

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14/12/2014

Posted by bronwen wild on Sunday, December 14, 2014,

send help.

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Posted by bronwen wild on Tuesday, December 9, 2014,

so a kid from my old town died.
well
killed himself
and
it'd weird
you know?
because i hadn't thought of this kid in years
i went to primary school with him
he was the year above
we lived close
his school busstop was the same as mine
sometimes if i got there early we'd see eachother
sometimes we'd talk
or smile
or do that head nod thing

I can remember his voice
and his face
so clearly
i havent seen him in years
his mother was always nice to me
always happy whenever she saw me

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fuck i just realised that i think im too late. im pretty sure she already is going off me.

Posted by bronwen wild on Friday, December 5, 2014,

dear you

so i've been thinking a lot about death
mainly my own
and the fact that i hope it will be soon
i understand you dont know
and i understand its hypocritical to feel sad when in reality all you're doing is what i do to you
im not fair
i know
i go days without talking
but then
so do you
sometimes i think we're as bad as eachother
other days i remind myself i am no doubt worse
so i know i have no right to feel hurt
and im not even mad at you
im mad at me
mad that i think i even need to reac...
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