Browsing Archive: September, 2013
Posted by bronwen wild on Sunday, September 29, 2013,
HELLO
SO
HAPPY
Skype call with Gina and Lucy and Beth?(idontknowher) and a guy called Dawid(orsomething)
And it was good and fun and normal
and it was nice
and we talked about weird shit
and like
it seemed like everything is back to normal with me and gina
and it was just nice
and cool
and i really like Lucy
I hope we become better friends
ever since she wasn't worried by my beard wearing ways i knew she was cool
But yes
It was nice
and I dont feel
Okay no
thats a lie
I still feel like crap
as muc...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Friday, September 27, 2013,
A girl on tumblr might have killed herself today. And the most I could do for her was send her a message that I cant be sure actually sent, or that she read.
I get she's a stranger but she seemed to be a good,kind, caring person.
but I could do NOTHING for her.
And I hate that.
Im sat on skype atm in a call with two of my good friends.
One is or was my best friend.
Im not sure if im hers anymore though...
But
I've been missing for weeks
becuase I hate skype calls
They're dull
and I get ignored fo...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Monday, September 23, 2013,
There are moments, I have found where sudden realizations will hit you and change everything.
I have had a few moments like this in my life.
Most of them about why i feel depressed or why I hate myself or why I've never felt like I belong.
This one I guess is no different.
And this one has been slow in coming.
maybe it isnt all the way there yet, because, well, im still breathing.
But, I fear, well, my only fear has, become true. And I fear it will always and has always been this way. And tha...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Saturday, September 21, 2013,
i dont mean to alarm myself, but i apear tto my very suicidal all of a sudden.
But My hair is pretty.
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Posted by bronwen wild on Wednesday, September 18, 2013,
God yola. Hello. Fuck I dont know
I was fine
but now im all worried about gina
not in that way
like im worried i've fucked everything up
because i havent been online in ages
and like even before then i wasn't online much
and im scared im going to loose her as a friend because shes wonderful and i love her
and i dont want to loose her
but i dont know what to do because theres no point in me going back because she cant deal with me not being okay and i cant deal with pretending to be okay
or fucki...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Saturday, September 14, 2013,
No one will kiss your scars
no one will find them beautiful
and there is nothing romantic or beautiful about them, or depression
or anxiety for that matter
its not for cute shy girls who never fit in who like reading and spending time alone
who wear glasses and have long flowey hair
who will meet this perfect guy
who will fall in love with her quiet ways
and how she loves books
and when he sees her scars will tell her he loves her while kissing them
there is no such thing as the pixey dream gir...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Friday, September 13, 2013,
God fuck yola
just fuck
right
so thismorning
I had awful anxiety when i woke up, but i MADE myself get up and get ready and just everything was going wrong... well i say everything...and going wrong... it was more like I was VERY jumpy and and edge and things werent going as smoothly as possible and the final straw was me trying to put my ipod in my bag... the headphones stuck to the outside of the bag and i just couldnt... like I could have cried I was so frustrated... keeping in mind this wa...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Tuesday, September 10, 2013,
Hey yola
so
well when i came here i was freaking out
but vixx kind of calmed me down...
singing along to the instumental verson of g.r.8.u. is really calming :3
but yes
i am not okay
like
not
okay
like
was considering heavily killing myself, wrote a note
not okay
oh and intentionally cut where there are veins in my wrist
i hate doing that
it normally scares me
and addmitadly the ones that are the "right" way and are over veins and shallow as fuck and will fade to lines in a few days.. but like the poin...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Sunday, September 8, 2013,
Ha so hay
finished my first week of college
it was... in a word... hell
like
the girls are nice (and the two guys)
but they're.... typical 16-20 year old girls.
and I do not fit into that catagory
They would never wish to be friends with me or have conversations about anything none college/work related
And in turn I feel exactly the same way towards them
I like all of them
They might not return that
but still...they're okay
theres one lady ylande (i think thats how you spellher name i have no fuck...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Tuesday, September 3, 2013,
god i dont even know
college today
have to get up stupidly early
i dont it in on my course
everyone is nice tho
course seems good
i just have this feeling im going to spend the next two years on my own
with no friends
anywhere in college
its not like i want to quit but i hurt from all the anxiety today and we shall see how this week goes...
;l,kmjnhbgvfcddf ghj
its just a means to an end
we can do this sammie
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Posted by bronwen wild on Tuesday, September 3, 2013,
Today has just been a cluster fuck of emotions
right because when i woke up all was good... it was 3 pm and my brother was in a good mood annd we went to tesco and i bought movies...
but then i go downstairs to get food and me and my dad have a fight over the usual crap of him being a terrible person and me just
not
understanding
because
thats
litterally
not
how
it
works
good god.
so then i was crying a lot... and messaged gina because sads
and then i got over it a bit and asked how she was and she sai...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Monday, September 2, 2013,
So I start my new college in two days.
Well tomorrow now.. cause its almost one am on monday... so tomorrow (tuesday) shit goes down.
And
I dont know what to think
Because on the one hand... This is the first thing I have achieved in my life... you know?
Because I didn't get GCSE's and I didnt stay in school
But I did this. against all the odds. Cause fuck were there some cosmic fuckin forces trying to stop me from doing this.
But like... I did it. I passed. I fucking got my english gcse. And...
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