Browsing Archive: April, 2013
Posted by bronwen wild on Saturday, April 27, 2013,
Ugh okay so im ranting on here cause i've moaned enough on tumblr today (totally got new followers for it though so YAY)
But anyway. Ugh. I just saw a group on fb called "oppa teenish style" and for starters
what? But mainly
that makes no sense you fucking moron
Oppa is
a respectful name girls use for guys older than them. It basically means brother. and In Gangnam style he is of course referring to himself saying oppa is gangnam style, which basically means he's rich, likes to party and dresse...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Thursday, April 25, 2013,
So lately I've been crushed under this weight of how utterly pointless it all is. And I hate how cliche and stupid that sounds. And I dont think i have the patience to explain it well here since my keyboard has 7 letters that dont work. But it's just been occurring to me more and more recently the absurdity of it all. At 14 your told to pick four things that will vastly shape your future. at 16 you then choose one to two of those things and get better at them. At 18 you can either go off doin...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Friday, April 19, 2013,
You know. It doesn't surprise me that no one sees or cares how un-okay I am anymore. I mean if history is anything to go by im pretty good at hiding it... I dont even mean to. I just... around people I transform.. Even if im falling apart and the person next to me notices, I'll smile and tell them im fine before I even realize I've spoken. but as quick as it came the smile dies. So no, I dont "wear a mask" like many a dramatic 13 year old including me would say.... I more.... I dont really kn...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Thursday, April 18, 2013,
So dad gets pretty aggressive pretty quickly while high. JOY!
and the house stinks! Yay.
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Posted by bronwen wild on Wednesday, April 17, 2013,
drinking I could deal with. You never got drunk this early. But you are off your face on whatever you're smoking with that bitch and have been for hours. I dont like it and I dont trust you. I dont know how to deal with you like this. I'm scared and things were shit enough without you scaring me more than usual.
you know the thing I hate most about depression and anxiety? I get acne like you wouldn't believe. Its horrible. and a viscous cycle, cause the more anxious i get the more spots i get...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Wednesday, April 17, 2013,
I dont want to be here anymore I mean what is the fucking point in ANY of it get a job, dont get a job, fall in love, be alone, be fat, be thin, be clever, be dumb, read dont read, live, dont live, WHATS THE POINT? what difference does any of it make? Its always going to just be stuff, its never going to be enough, not enough money, not enough work, not enough looks, its never going to go further than here cause in the end it will have all been for naught. I will never matter. and once my tim...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Monday, April 15, 2013,
Someone notice please? I feel like I did before. I dont know how it got to this. Help. Please. I cant tell anyone. I dont trust you. And I dont trust you to care. But I need someone to. I want to say im scared, but im not. I just want it all to go away.
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Posted by bronwen wild on Sunday, April 14, 2013,
I dont know anymore.
Im bad again
And I've stopped being afraid of dieing again,
because normally the whole concept scares the jeebus out of me, you know, the whole thought that you just stop.existing. it is supposed to terrify me. but i've been sat here on my floor less than indifferent to it. Like I keep running it through my head. They'd miss me, I'd never see Elaina grow up, I'd never fall in love again, never see how i turn out, never see how padi'd turn out, i'd just be nothing, I'd cease...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Thursday, April 4, 2013,
well two things
First: OHMYGOSHSHESTILLLIKESME So yeah I um, well i dont know really, all I really know is that she likes me still and that she misses me and that she would have very much liked to kiss me (god bless that girl and her balls) ugh so happy, I was like a school girl yesterday, sat giggling and smiling like an idiot :3 OH and flailing and squee ing and oh my god AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH >_< FUCK YES I HAVE A CHANCE WITH THE MOST PERFECT GIRL EVER >_<
Second thing is way less AHHHH b...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Wednesday, April 3, 2013,
and so at 3:30 in the morning for the first time in a long while im going to say the words that I hate more than anything.
I'm so fucking alone.
god how I wish saying it made it better. made it go away
I feel empty and alone and so much like I did before. Back before all of this. When I was a stupid 12 year old who trusted people way too easy.
Im scared of so many things yola, like, what if this is it? What if I'm just alone now? what if I fuck up? what if I stop being scared, cause I stopped ...
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