Browsing Archive: May, 2012
Posted by bronwen wild on Wednesday, May 30, 2012,
I want to cry and scream and run away and die. I want to get away. I want a hug. I need something. I... I feel like all the strings inside me have broken...
Fuck this shit.
I dont know what to do anymore.
Bye yola.
Hhahaha I wrote this hours ago :L Oh wells ... still stands.... gonna remember to publish this time.... :L or not...whatever
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Posted by bronwen wild on Monday, May 28, 2012,
I REALLY need to stop watching twin and Nova videos. The depress the fuck out of me, but I love them so much!
Tiz nawt good... but yeah.. felt that that needed a hole blog post to its self ahaha :3
So yeah... Byes and stuff :L
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Posted by bronwen wild on Friday, May 25, 2012,
Hey yola.
So I had a really good day yesterday...and I thought I should tell you since s rarely do I have a day this epic :3
So I went into town to meet up with Jess and Sionie after their physics exam. And emily ended up coming too ^_^
And we all just chilled in the park which was cool.... just haging around with probably three of my best friends :3
And Then Em had to go to her English Exam so was jut me Jess and Sioned... And we didn't really do much to be fair. sat at a bench until her dad ...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Wednesday, May 23, 2012,
Honestly I will pay good effing money to anyone who can stop my belly from hurting for like maybe an hour?
I have been in agony for three days...each day getting slowly worse... Its not been this bad in ages T_T Well apart from that month and last month :3 But you know, agony is agony.. and I'd like to be able to move and think and breath and not want to cry from pain sometime soon please. Cause I've had this for a year and a half and I've been told its this and its that...and guess what turn...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Monday, May 21, 2012,
Hey yola. So tonight the last ever fist airing of an episode of One Tree Hill ended. Thats 9 seasons...Nine years of one TV show. And no it wasn't the greatest show. But I realized something while watching it. Its gotten me through my life.
From just giving me one hour, once a week to just forget who I was, and ignore all the hate and shouting around me. To the first Christmas after the rents split. Granny bought me season one and two. And I sat about a foot from the tv in the lounge downstai...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Monday, May 21, 2012,
*** Right so I just wrote this... and even to start with I didnt have anything planned for this so its just me babbling... Im not upset or anything... its just me mumbling about John Green, forgiving people and le family... Its nothing important. It was more to kill time than anything else :3 no really.... Its random "OMG SO DEEP" shit... I have my emo girl at three am brain on... so its all "deep" and shit ahaha :3 seriously you have been fair warned now... if you read it and come away goin...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Friday, May 18, 2012,
Hey yola. Tonight I was reminded of why I will never ever give in to what people say and let alcohol in. Tonight I was reminded of how it ruins lives and destroyed my family. Thats right kids, me and dad talked. Which was a shame since for the past few days we'd been getting along really well.. But of course this had to happen. I was almost starting to rethink my stand on drink. Even after the joys of what happened in cornwall.
But of course, it started out fine, we were just talking... And h...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Monday, May 14, 2012,
Dear brain quit telling me its a good idea to watch old films or chick flick type films or to read John Green. Cause its not. And no matter how many times I read AAOK or paper towns its not going to change the way things are. Its just going to make me sad.
God I dont even have anything to be sad about these days
what the fuck is wrong is me?
But yet still here I am, feeling sorry for myself
And I don't have a reason anymore
My life is sorting itself out
just shut the fuck up me
so things this ye...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Sunday, May 13, 2012,
I dont care if it makes me sound like a 5 year old. I want my mammy and cwtchs. Not sure why. But I just sat and thought..." I am tired, in pain and alone. I would quite like some cwtchs and my mammy"
Im even sad or anything. I mean I've had a pretty awesome day to be honest. Just messing about with the best friend I've ever had. Like no matter how crap I've been the past two years Jess has stuck by me, and like doesn't mind at all. And I love her for it. I think if i ever properly lost Jessi...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Friday, May 11, 2012,
I dont want to go to the cinema tomorrow.
I want to crawl in a hole and cry. Dieing is also in the table.
I feel like crap and dont know what to do with myself. stuck somewhere between crying and numb. God I was doing so fucking well a few weeks ago, whats gone wrong here?
Fuck it, im bored of people seeing me sad. From now on happy me. Im going to be thin and happy by summer. Plan? I think yes. Well I'll already be happy, but ya know the thin thing will take a few weeks :3
So yeah :) HAPPY HA...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Thursday, May 10, 2012,
Hey yola :3
So today I went to prom :L Its funny actually... it was kinda better than I thought it would be, and I danced... actually danced! Bahaha Oh and I wore a dress and it was fun. But OH MY GOSH DAISY LOOKED SO PRETTY!!!! It was amazing!!!! And so did everyone else but daisy just sdfghkl.khn bgvcfghukhvbhb PRETTY!!!!!! Was nice.. for an evening everyone was back together (apart from sionie who spent most of the night with Tristan) Ima miss those guys when I leave for good... cause I k...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Tuesday, May 8, 2012,
Dear Mammy.
Yesterday would have been your 47th birthday. And I can't help feeling that the fact that its this week. Exactly one week before my first exam should be, and four days before 'prom'. That its as if the world is trying to remind me how you're never going to be there for the important moments in my life. And I hate that. And I hate Padi for the fact that he got to be 21 when you died. He'd been to school, gone to prom, done his a levels and gone to uni, had a car bought for him and ...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Sunday, May 6, 2012,
Happy birthday mam... So todays started well...
Me and padi downstairs talking, being all happy... But my ribbons had fallen down and he saw my arms... And cause he brilliant like that he just gets angry at me. And shouts telling me how stupid I am. Thanks patsi...
Like I need reminding that im a stupid fuckup.
Well this fuckup is just gonna sit here crying for a hole day... So i'll probably be back here later or something...
Bye for now
please kill me.
Edit****
Hey so I went back down to get...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Saturday, May 5, 2012,
BLLLAARRRGGGLE! annd stuff..... My belly is all stabby and hurty and I dont like it T_T And im bored of being at home T_T But due to my massive lack of friend..or at least friends who are wiling to go to carms or somewhere else (cause for some reason a lot of them would rather spend a day In Emlyn... T_T) I am stuck at home. And I dont even know if im supposed to be doing my exams cause no ones told me anything... and my belly was an asshole so I coudln't go to school this week.. well no, I c...
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Posted by bronwen wild on Tuesday, May 1, 2012,
hey, so I guess lately I've been feeling kinda alone "/ .. And not because of yesterdays oh so hilarious dumpage or any crap like that. Its just a strange feeling deep down. I can't explain it. And I dont know why its there.. But just sometimes I'll be sat doing whatever, and then my head'll go "I feel alone..." And the rest of me will go "yeah.."(what? shut up I can have a conversation with myself if i like) And then im just sat there... feeling alone. But its kinda always there. Like I'll b... Continue reading ...
