so i rewatched an episode of tree hill today.. after not really watching it since it finished in 2012. And its made me think about one tree hill again.

I started watching it from season 5, so really I was only there for the last four seasons...so ater the characters had left high school...

But i grew up with them at an important time in my life, and 9 o'clock on mondays were my favorite days of the week. It wasn't that it was a great show (which imo it was for so many reasons) but it was an excuse to cry for an hour during a time when i believed crying was not only the weakest thing i could be doing but also the most pathetic and stupid and it basically made me the most useless waste of space on the planet. 

And watching one tree hill, this show that has literally seen me through the worst times in my life makes me feel so warm. It's like watching family. I know these people. I have watched them grow up, i've seen them become who they are and seen how they  got there. 

It's hard to explain my love for oth, it's been a part of my life since I was very young and didnt really know how life was going to turn out... but the one thing oth always taught me was that even though there are hard times now, and there will most likely be hard times in the future, there will always, ALWAYS be good times and beautiful things and good people, and it's those moments that matter, which is a message everyone needs to be reminded of now and then. 

So call me dumb for loving a silly teen drama, but nothing will stop me from loving that show. It's what i watched to wait for my mother to come home from dancing, it's what i watched to drown out that horrible, horrible christmass of 2008, it's what i used to help cope with the fact mum was dieing, it was what i watched to help heal my heart after she died.], it's what i watched after nicholas broke up with me to help. Nine seasons. I got the first two for christmass 2008, I got 3 and 4 to watch just after mum died... i got 5 and 6 some time after that... and i have no idea of when i bought 7 and 8, though i know i bought season 9 as soon as it came out on dvd.  

I have two shows that have changed my life, and that the dvd's mean the world to me. 

The first is one tree hill, the second is to the beautiful you.

Both saved me. Both I watch when im sad. Both I watch when I need to cry. Both have in some way shaped who I am today. But there is only one, tree hill.