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Hey yola
So bad day
well no
bad last 20 minutes
God
not even really bad
God
Just sad
Well no
Fuck
Stupid Jenn and Kelly
Found a video of the first time they ever met
And watched a video from like... really way back at the begginging of their relationship
and then thought back to live stream cuteness
And yeah.. Kelly was 21 when her and Jenn got together
But
Im just feeling like such a fuckup at the moment
cause I neither like my course
Or think I can deal with it
I have no friends
and am just feeling shit and alone
And Nick got a new girlfriend Which is awesome. Dont get me wrong super happy for him.
But ... like ... kinda just helped to remind me that its been... 7months since we broke up and I've been on my own without even really friends..
And so when I watch Parlé and see the family they've all got with eachother
and just how much of a grate group of friends they are
It makes me kinda sad
Cause I remember having that
I had the best group of friends ever
Then Trin left
You know I really thought we'd stay close
Stay together
Cause her and sam ... they were the best friends I'd ever had
I was kinda the third wheel
But I loved them

im just so tired